Disclaimer: I don't own 'em, wish I did. I'm just borrowing them for a
little bit. 

Rating: PG

I got inspired for this story by a song. I've written the lyrics below.

You Were Mine
   by the Dixie Chicks

I can't find a reason to let go
Even though you've found a new love
And she's what your dreams are made of

I can find a reason to hang on
What went wrong can be forgiven
Without you it ain't worth livin' alone

Sometimes I wake up crying at night
And sometimes I scream out your name
What right does she have to take you away
When for so long you were mine

Took out all the pictures of our wedding day
It was a time of love and laughter
 Happy ever after

But even those old pictures have begun to fade
Please tell me she's not real
And that you're really coming home to stay

Sometimes I wake up crying at night
And sometimes I scream out your name
What right does she have to take you away
When for so long you were mine

I can give you two good reasons
To show you love's not blind
He's 2 and she's 4
And you know they adore you
So how can I tell them
You've changed your mind

Sometimes I wake up crying at night
And sometimes I scream out your name
What right does she have to take your heart away
When for so long you were mine

I remember when you were mine
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Now, for my story


You Were Mine
   by Cassie Kirk

He's gone. I can't believe he's gone. It just doesn't seem possible. I
never thought he'd leave me for *her* not after all the yahrens we've
spent together.

He's gone and I can't seem to let him go. I want to hang on for just a
bit longer. I've loved him for so long, it's so hard to say goodbye.

Nights are the worst. During the day, I have my job to distract me. 
But, at night, all the memories of him and me flood my mind, making
sleep impossible. I toss and turn all night, only to find sleep in the
few centars before I have to return to work. Or, I fall asleep crying
and wake up calling out for him, but he doesn't answer because he isn't
there. His side of the bed remains cold and untouched, because he's
with her, even though the Seal we took is not officially broken.

It's not fair. He chose me, not her. He told me he would love me
forever.  He made that promise the day we were Sealed. I remember that
day as if it were yesterday instead of almost ten yahrens ago. We were
so happy then. So in love. What went wrong? Where did I go wrong?  I
thought I had made him forget his love for her. I thought I'd finally
had all of his heart to myself. But, I was wrong.
 
He told me he never stopped loving her. And that he realized what a
mistake it was for us to be Sealed. When he said that, he might as well
have ripped my heart out with his bare hands, it would have had the
same effect.

Why now? Why couldn't he have figured this out all those yahrens ago
before we were Sealed? It would have saved me some heartache. But, whom
am I kidding? It would have hurt me just as bad then as it does now.
But, if he had broken it off then, we wouldn't have had two beautiful
sons. I love them both dearly and I'm not sorry they were born. It's
just that without my husband, my life feels incomplete.
   
How am I going to tell the children that their daddy is no longer going
to live with us? They'll never understand. All they'll know is that
daddy left. How can I explain to them that daddy doesn't want to be
with mommy anymore because he loves another woman? It's not right.

He should be here. I'm looking at holopics of the day we were Sealed.
We looked so happy. You can see the love on our faces. I think I've
always known he still loved her. I just tried to pretend it wasn't so.
But now, to see them, they look so much happier than we ever used to be
together.

She's a Warrior like he is and they have more in common than we ever
did. I'm just a former Socialator, who fell in love, in spite of
everyone's warnings. How can I compete, when he sees her everyday,
works closely with her, and I only see him when he decides to come
home?

I hear the door open and shut, knowing it can be only one person. My
husband.  

My heart pounds faster and my throat tightens making it hard to
breathe. I lay still in bed, half-hoping he won't enter the bedroom,
half-hoping he will.

A part of me wants to run out and meet him, throw my arms around his
neck and pretend the past two sectars never happened. But, I hold back,
knowing how humiliated I would be if he didn't return my embrace.

I hear his footsteps nearing the bedroom door. It opens and our gazes
lock and we stare at each other in silence. What seems like centons go
by before I finally find my voice.

"You're here," I say flatly.

"Yes, I am." I can see the hurt in his eyes, even in the half-light of
the room. "I came to ask your forgiveness."

"My...my forgiveness?" I asked, too much in shock to say anything else.

"Yes, I hurt you badly and I'm sorry. Please forgive me." He ends in a
whisper.

"Do you want me to forgive you so you can return to *her* with a clear
conscience?" I demand angrily.

He bows his head. "No. I...I love you and I want to work things out. I
know I hurt you. I know there's no excuse for what I did, but I was so
afraid of losing you, I ended up pushing you away."

"Afraid of losing me? Why? You know how much I love you."

"I've always thought you would find someone better than me. Someone who
would always be there for you."

I move off the bed and go to stand in front of him. I smooth out the
little lines that always appear around his eyes when he's worried. He
grabs my hand and kisses my palm, sending a shiver of pleasure
throughout my body.

"Does this mean you forgive me?" he asks.

"Of course."

Then, he picks me up and carries me to the bed. "Before I forget, I
have a present for you." He pulls a small box out of his pocket and
hands it to me.

With shaky hands I slowly open it to reveal a beautiful ring with a
small glowing stone. "Oh," I gasp, "It's beautiful."

"Just like you. I bought it for our ten-yahren anniversary. I want to
be Sealed to you all over again. What do you say?"

"Yes! Yes! Yes! Oh, Adama, I love you so much!" I cry out, pulling him
close for a kiss.

"I love you too, Ila. Forever." He whispers as he leans down to kiss
me.

When he lifts his head, we both take large gulps of air, completely out
of breath. I know that if I weren't already lying down, I would have
collapsed in his arms.

"Adama?" I whisper.

"Yes, Darling?" He asks while gazing at me lovingly.

"I want another baby."

"Are you sure?" He asks warily. 

"Yes. I know how much you've wanted a baby girl. And, I enjoyed being
pregnant with Apollo and Zac. Please, let's try again." 

I see tears form in his eyes. "Are you sure? After what happened last
time..." he trailed off.

"Adama, the doctors told me that there is no reason why I shouldn't be
able to try again."

"I don't know. I don't know if we should risk it." His tears begin to
fall.

"Please don't cry." I say as I feel my own tears falling.

"I can't help it.  Your miscarriage was what made me scared of losing
you in the first place. I was so afraid you might leave me. And, my
fear grew to the point that I just had to leave, before you left me."

"Oh, Adama! I wish you had told me. I needed you so much more then. I
thought you were leaving me because you didn't love me anymore. I
thought you were in love with *her.*"

"No, Ila, I'm not. Not anymore anyway. I was, a long, long time ago.
You are the only woman I love. The only woman I will love. For the rest
of my life."

My tears fall faster. "I love you so much." I pull him close and we
hold each other for a long time, not saying anything.

"Ila, I would love to try for another baby, if you're sure that's what
you really want." Adama says, breaking the silence.

 "Yes, it's what I want."

"Alright," He agrees. "But, I have one request. If we have a girl, do
you mind if we name her Athena?"

"I don't mind," I whisper in reply. "I don't mind at all."
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Comments and constructive criticism welcome! Flames as always will be
ignored.

Cassie