Title: At The World's End 1 By: Lauralee Copyright (c) 1998 Rating: PG-13 for adult themes Summary: In this Athena-centric first story in a continuing alternate universe series, the lost-battlestar Pegasus returns, bringing friends and loved ones to the survivors of the Fleet. Disclaimer: This is a fiction story based on the series Battlestar Galactica and its characters created and owned by Glen A. Larson. This story is not being sold for profit and no infringement of any copyright rights are intended. All unrecognized characters and plot lines are mine and any resemblance to any person living or dead is purely coincidental. Notes: See Author's Notes at end of last chapter There are those who believe that life here, began out there, far across the Universe with tribes of humans who may have been the forefathers of the Egyptians, of the Toltecs or of the Mayans. Some believe there may yet be brothers of man who even now fight to survive somewhere beyond the heavens. This is their story.... <> Chapter 1 - The Arrival It was almost the end of Lieutenant Athena's double-shift on the Bridge of the battlestar Galactica and she was desperately trying to stay alert. It had been a long cycle spent, in addition to her Bridge duty, teaching the Galactica school and helping the shuttle bay crews inventory shuttle fuel. She had just been starting to drift off, her black hair falling into her face, when she was startled by a blast of static in her earpiece. "Wow!" she exclaimed, her blue eyes growing wide with surprise, as unintelligible but obviously voice-based communications came over the line. Athena worked furiously trying to clear up the signals, pressing filter buttons and scan refinement buttons on her console to no avail. The only thing she could tell for sure were that the sounds were definitely not the Delphinian communications the should have been hearing in that Sector. "Colonel Tigh, I think you should hear this," she alerted her commanding officer. Colonel Tigh, a distinguished older man with dark skin, leaned over his aide's shoulder to listen to the transmissions the forward communications probe was picking up. "Cylons!" He murmured under his breath as he too recognized the communications' origins. "I'll go inform the Commander, patch this into the labs and see if we can translate some of this. Omega, contact the patrol and inform them we are picking up Cylon communications ahead," Tigh gave orders as he headed towards the ship's Commander who was sitting in his domain at the center of the Bridge. The Fleet was running out of fuel fast and could not sustain a long battle. Tigh hoped that this wasn't an unavoidable development. As soon as Tigh left her side Athena discovered she had lost contact with Apollo and Starbuck's patrol. Her muscles stiffened with fear and she clenched her fist. 'Maybe they're just avoiding detection by the Cylons out of range? Lords of Kobol, I hate being stuck here with no way to help them!' Athena felt her fear turning to a familiar state of frustration and rage. Both feelings had begun within her when the Fifth Fleet was destroyed at Molecay while she was still in the Academy and were compounded watching her brother and the rest of her world being destroyed as she sat helpless on the Bridge. She took a deep breath and signaled Sergeant Omega, the Bridge Communications Officer, to inform him of this latest problem. With a quick nod the tall sandy-haired man walked over to another console to check whether it was just a glitch in Athena's receiver. He sighed heavily when he confirmed that the patrol was unreachable and was not detected by any of their scans. Omega immediately headed to inform Commander Adama and Colonel Tigh about this new situation. Just when the Bridge crew thought things couldn't get tenser Flight Coordinator Rigel shakily announced that she had found an anomaly in her scans. Colonel Tigh walked over to inspect her findings as everyone hoped it was merely the patrol contacting them on a back-up frequency. Tigh leaned over to take a closer look and reared back suddenly. "Have this scanner checked immediately, we obviously have some sort of malfunction!" he roared and strode to Athena's console. Instituting emergency protocol Athena switched her scans to Rigel's portion of the quadrant and found what had so disturbed her colleague. The image coalescing on her console appeared to be a battlestar - not their own but one hovering in front of them! "Colonel, I'm picking up the same image, so unless I'm having the same malfunction...!" Someone suggested it was an echo, a bounce off a Cylon scrambler, but the image was now on the bridge monitor and was only getting closer and clearer. "If that's an echo, it's the cleanest transmission I've ever seen," Tigh observed breathlessly. "I'd have to agree, Tigh," the white-haired Commander Adama came to stand beside his Colonel. "But there is no other explanation, no other battlestars survived Cimtar." "Sirs, there's a signal coming in on fleet comline Alpha!" Omega suddenly interrupted their exchange. Adama turned his sturdy body and looked at him skeptically. "That's impossible, the Alpha line is an automatic scramble communicator between warships. Check your systems, there must be --" Before Adama could complete his sentence the image on the screen began to dissolve and reform. Suddenly, what had been a battlestar was now a face and a very familiar one. The visage of Commander Cain, the late Commander of the destroyed Battlestar Pegasus, was smirking broadly at the Galactica crew. The battlestar thought destroyed along with the Fifth Fleet over three yahrens ago at Molecay. The entire Galactica Bridge was silent until Adama exclaimed, in obvious disbelief of his own senses, "Cain! By all that's holy!" Cain's smirk turned into a full-fledged smile and he chuckled at his reception. "Nothing holy about me, old friend. What's the matter? You look as though you've seen a ghost. I can't be looking that bad." Cain waited a few microns for his audience to take in his wit before continuing. "Adama, wake up old man! Are you just going to stand there and let me plow through your fleet or are you going to give me rendezvous instructions?" The Bridge crew erupted into excited chatter and cheers. Only Athena remained silent. She had stopped listening and appeared to be concentrating on her work. In actuality she was staring at her screens, unseeing and in shock. 'Oh Goddess, he could be alive. He could be alive!' her mind kept repeating as her senses were assaulted with unbidden images of the past. In all the images was one face. First it was a boy's face, sunlight reflecting off the lake. Then it was the boy's face older, looking down at the ground in obvious hesitance. Then the same, now as a man, love and humor shining from its green eyes surrounded by a sunny smile. Then it was a woman's face on a holoscreen. Her not-yet sister-in-law Serina announcing to the Colonies that the Fifth Fleet had been obliterated by the Cylons at Molecay. With each image Athena felt as if a spear was being stabbed into her heart and she had to bite her lip to stop the tears gathered in her eyes from falling. "By the grace of the gods, the Pegasus survived," she whispered brokenly. * * * * After what seemed an interminable period of time, Athena was released from duty. She didn't waste a moment, her plans to sleep abandoned as she ran to the closest shuttle bay. During her headlong rush down the corridor to the lift she ran into Apollo and Boxey, almost literally. "Aunt Athena!" Boxey threw his arms around his Aunt a hug, oblivious to the fact that she had almost mowed him down. Athena smiled at his innocent exuberance and crouched down to talk to her nephew face to face. "Hey Kiddo, glad to see your Dad, huh?" She looked up at her brother and let her eyes communicate her relief at his safe return, sparing his son a rehashing of her brief worry. "Yeah, he found a whole other battlestar. Pretty neat, huh?" Athena chuckled at his simplified observation and ruffled his hair. "He's always been good at finding the big things," she replied with an ironic grin at her brother. Her grin faded as she remembered her current mission - finding transport to that "neat find." Apollo noticed the anxious expression on his sister's face and realized where her thoughts were. "Boxey, why don't you run ahead, I'll just be a centon." "Adult talk, I'm going," Boxey grumbled as he shuffled off with his mechanical daggit trailing behind. Apollo watched them walk off with a fond look before he turned to his attention to his sister. "Athena..." he began at the same time she started to speak. "Apollo, did you, is he...?" she couldn't bring herself to ask out loud. She didn't know which answer scared her more - an affirmative or a negative. If he was alive, had he been hurt in the battle? Was he in pain? Did they still have feelings for each other or was it all just memories now? Another relationship destroyed by the Cylon evil? "Yes, Athena. He's alive," Apollo managed to get out before leaning over the support his sister as she visibly paled and swayed in shock. "He caught me right before I left to return here," Apollo continued in a whisper. "Don't wait, go to him," Apollo said huskily, glad for his sister's second chance just a evenly as part of him selfishly wished that it could be his instead. His wife, however, wasn't coming back and he was going to do everything in his power to make this happen for his little sister. Fuel shortage be damned. "Are there any shuttles going over now?" "There must be. Let's get Boxey and go see Captain Droma, he would be in charge of any inter-ship traffic. Because of the fuel shortage I'm sure Father won't allow pleasure trips, but there must be exchange of supplies and politicians. I can guarantee that the Council will rush right over in order to make the next IFB News broadcast. I'm sure we can wrangle you a way over there, that is assuming Orion doesn't come here first," Apollo said soothingly, trying to soothe Athena's obviously jangled nerves and find a quick solution to her dilemma. "Why Captain, that sounds almost, well, 'sly.' You've been hanging out with Starbuck way too long!" Athena smiled at her brother, appreciating his take charge attitude for once as she tried to gather her shattered nerves together. "Just being a good big brother," Apollo replied, deadpan. Athena rolled her eyes, grateful for her brother's introduction of humor into the conversation. She knew he did it to allow her to regain her dignity and control. "Did you see anyone else?" Athena changed the subject, unsure how she was feeling at the moment about the shocking news and deciding to push it away for the centon. "Well, in addition to Cain, who is as intransigent and smug as ever, I also had a lovely chat with his daughter," Apollo stated with feigned casualness as he began to lead her in the direction Boxey had headed. "Aaah! Sheba, and how is she?" Athena asked with a smile. As children, the Adama and Cain families use to get together on holidays and the kids would play together - usually battlestar games where Apollo, Athena and Sheba would argue over who got to be Commander. Zac just wanted to blow away Cylons, he wasn't interested in "boring administrative felgercarb," as he put it. The children and wives spending time together in silent solidarity while their fathers and husbands were away at battle were precious memories for both siblings, Apollo's jibe aside. "Arrogant as ever, that's how she is. You should have heard her, as if she and her wingmate weren't as shocked as we were to find other humans and another battlestar all the way out here!" Athena was intrigued, this was the most emotion she had seen Apollo exhibit about anything or anyone since Serina had been killed; but then, Sheba had always managed to get a rise out of the usually studious young man. Athena couldn't wait to see her old friend, this added dimension making it all the more of an exciting prospect. "Being alone in space so long with her Father couldn't have helped," Apollo observed, his opinion of Cain's manners had never been eclipsed by his military genius. "I didn't get a chance to find out who else is on board. So let's go see a man about a shuttle." The brother and sister looked at each other for a moment before heading down the battlestar corridor arm in arm. * * * * * Apollo left his sister at Landing Bay Alpha, having helped Athena convince Ronar and Tilon to let her and Dietra take over their supply- shuttle duty to the Pegasus, and went to find Starbuck. After Starbuck had told Cassi that Cain was still alive she ran off and left him standing in her quarters. He had still been visibly upset when Apollo had encountered him after leaving Athena with Boxey near the shuttle bay while he looked for Captain Droma to arrange Athena's transport to the Pegasus. Starbuck, however, had run off before Apollo could ask him to wait. 'I hope he doesn't do anything impetuous this time' Apollo thought remembering when Athena had rejected Starbuck's proposition after the Destruction and he had run after the first pretty woman he found. 'The man has to learn to give the women in his life a chance before running away to soothe his bruised feelings,' Apollo shook his head in frustration. Not finding Starbuck in the barracks, Apollo headed for the O- Club, thinking that his friend might have gone to get a drink. When Starbuck failed to turn up at the bar he headed for the private room in the back, the barkeep motioning that Starbuck was indeed hiding back there. When Apollo entered the dark room he was immediately hit with the strong scent of fumarillos. Walking further into the room Apollo found Starbuck sitting on the floor smoking what appeared to be his fourth weed rod, if the stubs in the ash-receptacle were anything to go by. Apollo sat down on the floor next to him and silently considered having a smoke himself. It had been some cycle already. Neither of them spoke for a few centons. Starbuck broke first. "What can I say old buddy? She went to him. I guess...ah, whatever. There are plenty of other beautiful women for me to conquer in this Fleet. I wonder what Athena is doing tonight?" Starbuck stated taking a jaunty pull on his weed. Apollo looked closely at his friend and decided not to address the issue of his sister right then. "Of course there are Starbuck. Ask Boxey, he keeps a running tab on all the women who chase you around the fleet. You might, however, want to give Cassiopea a chance to, uh, explain things." Starbuck shrugged with phony nonchalance. "Seemed pretty clear to me. I saw you talking to Athena's long-lost also. Pretty ironic, both Cassi and Athena finding their lost loves on the Pegasus. Seems to me that maybe I've ended up even here. Even if I had given Athena a chance as you always said I should she too would have ran off to the Pegasus after an old boyfriend. I'm not going to be taking any bets this sectar." Apollo shot his friend a sad look. He knew that his friend didn't think the situation was as simple as he was saying, but needed, even with his best friend, to cover his raw emotions. Starbuck appreciated the silence and the two friends fell into a companionable silence looking at the stars through the room's viewport. "You really don't know how Cassi feels, Starbuck. I know she cares for you a great deal, she and Cain were a long time ago. She was shocked to hear he was alive, she cared for him, of course she had to go see him," Apollo said casually, not bothering to make eye contact. "He certainly is old enough to be her father. He probably had a crush on her and she was being nice to him. It was her job, to be nice." Starbuck started to warm to the idea again, ignoring the attraction that the charismatic celebrity might hold for any woman. "Anyway, what are we going to do about the Cylons?" Apollo filled Starbuck in about the plan Adama had mentioned briefly when he brought Boxey to meet him at the landing bay. "I don't think Cain is going to be satisfied with taking fuel from the tankers and leaving. He wants Baltar's blood, he wants revenge, and he wants to single-handedly destroy the Cylons. He wants another chapter in the history books." "Yeah, I figured that, reputation precedes him and all that. I don't need to see him conning the Council for that. What happened?" "They're following Adama now, but we better watch him carefully out there. Adama is worried he may throw the mission to limit our choices to his option. He's worked with the man before." "We? Out where?" Starbuck asked staring at Apollo in feigned surprise. "Uh, did I forget to mention that you, uh, volunteered to make the fuel run?" Apollo grinned at his scowling friend. "Leave your side for a second and you go nuts. Me volunteer..." Starbuck shook his head, but continued to grin. His usual act of denying heroism amusing the two wingmates momentarily. 'As if he wouldn't have sneak his way into the mission had they tried to stop him,' Apollo thought before continuing out loud, "come on, Starbuck, let's get to the war room and then get some shut eye. We have a busy cycle coming up." Apollo grabbed Starbuck's arm before they got out the door, "are you okay Starbuck, I mean about Cassi?" "Sleep sounds real good right now. Yeah, Apollo, I'm fine. I'm always fine." For once Starbuck didn't give one of his trademark grins, instead he looked as somber as he should. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Chapter 2 - The Reunion Athena and Lieutenant Dietra sat in the pilot seats of the shuttle bringing various department heads from the Galactica to the long-lost battlestar. Dietra looked over at her best friend, noting Athena's look of concentration. "I'm sure you'll get the landing right this time," Dietra's brown eyes sparkled with humor. Athena's face relaxed and she let out a laugh. "Oh gee, I hope so. With only about three thousand shuttle flights under my belt you can't expect it so soon." Dietra threw her head back and burst out laughing, her chocolate skin glowing in the dim light of the cockpit. She knew how dull and routine her best friend found inter-fleet shuttle flying - almost as dull as she would have found bridge duty. Turning serious Dietra said soothingly, "take a few deep breaths. You're not going to your execution, you're going to see your childhood friend." "A man I thought was killed yahrens ago? A man who I was going to get sealed to? Why should I be nervous, happens all the time right? What exactly does one say on such an occasion anyway? It'll all be so trite!" "Miss-by-the-code, always concerned about propriety, that's you!" Dietra said with obvious sarcasm. "How about just being yourself? Listen, there is no guide for this sort of thing, see how he plays it." Dietra knew that her friend was unsure whether to act as if the relationship had or hadn't ended since his "death." "Act like he's an old friend, see what he has to say. See how he acts. Knowing Orion he's probably just as nervous as you." "Right, waiting to see how I act, this will be real productive," Athena sighed. "We should be hearing from the Pegasus core command in a few microns." "Okay, let's try not to make this a rough landing," Dietra let the subject of Orion drop, knowing that her friend wasn't trying to be difficult with her, just deathly afraid of the coming reunion. "Well, you viper pilots tend to be so heavy handed," Athena grinned gratefully at Dietra before turning her attention back to the landing controls. * * * * * * * * * * Athena paced the landing bay as she waited for Orion to appear. Everyone who had come aboard the shuttle had left to attend their duties and or search for friends aboard the Pegasus. Athena had sent an advance message while still on the Galactica to Captain Orion, Athena smiled at his relatively quick advancement, that she was arriving and would be waiting at the shuttle bay. Athena's smile at the news faded and her nerves came back unabated. 'He isn't coming. He's in love with someone else now. He's moved on...' Athena was so engrossed in her panic that she was startled to see the lift was already descending to the landing bay level. She halted her movements, she was in fact incapable of movement - or breathing, and watched it as the open lift's only rider came into view. When she saw the face - his face - she caught her breath so rapidly she almost started choking. Her frantic heartbeat didn't help matters either. 'He's even more beautiful than ever,' she thought as tears came to her eyes and her heart almost burst from the joy of looking upon his much- missed countenance. Studying him as he confidently strode towards her she saw that he had survived the battle unscathed and that time and experience had both strengthened his face and body. His stride displayed a confidence that could only have been earned over the past few yahren, it was not something she had ever seen him carry before. He stopped in front of her before she had time to figure out what she was going to say. "Hello Lieutenant Athena," Captain Orion of the battlestar Pegasus moved close to Athena and gently framed her face with his hands while his jewel green eyes searched her face, taking in the changes the years had wrought. His mouth settled into a tender smile as he noticed that he had been right - she had grown into a beautiful woman. "I always knew you'd mature into one heck of a babe. That's why I tried to snag you early," he expressed his thoughts as honestly and humorously as they had always done with each other. It was as if time had stood still in their hearts. "Orion," she smiled at his familiar teasing. "I can't believe your real, you're here, you're alive!" She whispered the last word brokenly as reached up to touch his face as if to confirm she wasn't dreaming. She ran her hands over the stubbled chin he obviously hadn't shaved in a couple of days. She then ran her fingers through his close cropped black hair. Her shock and joy dissipating any lingering feelings of unease. Thoughts of missing yahrens and the possibility he had found another love ceasing to matter in those microns. She felt Orion's smile on her hands and she noticed that his eyes weren't as dry as she had thought. 'Maybe he isn't confident about everything!' she thought, noting the awe and relief evident in his eyes. "Oh, Tena, this is real!" Orion grabbed Athena's waist and pulled her close and placed his lips gently on hers. Once their lips met it was truly as if no time had passed. It was as if they had last kissed just a moment before and not over two yahrens earlier. It was as if they were once again innocent and exuberant adolescents who hadn't lived through battle and destruction. "I've missed you terribly, Brat," Orion whispered. Athena wrinkled her nose at him. She always pretended, on principle, that she hated when he called her that. Apollo had given her that name when they were kids and Orion hadn't ever let her forget it. "I missed you too," she managed get out even though he was crushing the breath out of her. He noticed her breathlessness and loosened his grip with a chuckle at his unaccustomed lack of finesse. She just smiled up at him uncaring of her physical discomfort if it meant she was in his arms. Orion saw the sadness settle once again behind Athena's eyes and wondered how witnessing the Destruction of their worlds had affected her. "We went back to the Colonies, we saw the devastation. It must have been horrible to see in real time, to not have been able to prevent. I know I was so angry we were not there. I thought you had been killed, you and everyone. I thought we were the last survivors," Orion stated as if she had spoken her change of thoughts out loud. "Mom was killed on Caprica. Zac was killed trying to get back and warn us about the ambush," Athena dropped her gaze, the spoken words making it seem like she was again sitting on the bridge listening to her brother's ship explode just as her other brother leapt onto the bridge to warn of Baltar's treachery. "Somehow we survived. We saved at that we could...I don't think it was enough," a tear fell down her cheek. "Lords of Kobol!" Orion exclaimed, remembering his friend Zac sadly. "I'm so sorry, I know close you two were." Orion continued to hold her tight. "We were all close," Athena leaned against his shoulder and closed her eyes remembering how they had all played together since childhood as Orion's height providing her with a physical comfort she had been unable to find with anyone else as she was often almost as tall as the men she dated. Athena gathered her thoughts and looked into Orion's eyes, preparing both of them for what she had to tell him. She knew he was wondering about his own family. His brother Bryan was the only family Orion had growing up, the rest of their family having been killed when he was a child. Only he and his brother, being at school during a Cylon attack, had survived. It was a common story among the Colonies. As a result, the brothers had been adopted by a loving family but the common tragedy had created a stronger than usual bond between the siblings. "The Pacifica was destroyed in the initial attack," Athena confirmed what Orion had always assumed, his brother's death. Orion nodded. "If there was a chance, I had to..." They held each other silently for a few centons. "Tell me about all this. These ships, where is this grouping of ships headed? I heard someone mention Earth? Isn't that from mythology?" "Can we sit down first?" Athena asked. Orion looked around and pulled her to the launch tube. The irony wasn't lost on Athena as she looked cautiously at the steam-purge pipes. She sat down gingerly and leaned into Orion's open arms and began talking again. "Earth is believed to be the name of the thirteenth colony originating from Kobol. Many believed Kobol itself to be a myth but we found it! At the ruins there was evidence of this missing tribe. So we're trying to find it. My father and the Fleet he leads, traversing the Universe hoping that this lost tribe can help us defeat the Cylons," Athena said the last sentence almost lyrically as if reciting an oft heard sentiment. "It's a shot at a home, at hope. Truthfully, I hope we're not leading the Cylons to their doorstep and the Earthlings to their destruction as well. If it even exists, but we don't have anywhere else to aim for. We need a goal in order to survive," she finished. "I guess that's true and until we destroy the Cylons we can't settle down and make a new home. I don't understand why we don't head back to the Colonies and make a stand there. With two battlestars there could be a chance to defend at least one planet, to make a stand. Surely we can all find a place to fit everyone and make a strong defense, as well as offense." Athena noticed Orion had begun to sound a lot like his maverick Commander. "I've given that some thought, how could I not? But we have so few warriors and so few weapons and resources. These people are hardly in shape for this journey, they certainly can't sit still and fight. Two battlestars are enough to take on the entire Cylon Empire. I wish we could go home, but we'd be still targets. We'd still be at a disadvantage. It's not feasible. It would be a stand - a last stand. If the Cylons once again decided to aim a large amount of fire power at us out here we'd be dead. We just have to keep running and eluding them. We'll be lucky to escape this system without the entire Empire knowing where we are." "When went back to the Colonies and saw the destruction we found people hiding on most of the planets. There are probably people on all of them, those mechanical demons aren't that thorough. The Commander wanted to head back into space and fight the Cylons and lead them away from the survivors, he knew that one battlestar wasn't enough protection. Some of the survivors even enlisted with us. We were lucky to find some warriors home on leave for the peace celebrations. Most people chose to stay behind in their homes. We left what weapons we could spare. It was horrible. If we could get two battlestars back there, arm some of these ships, move everyone to a single planet..." "Which one? Who would choose which planet? The Council make a swift decision or allow Adama to? Even if I thought we could defend ourselves, which I don't." Athena stroked Orion's arms to calm his arguments. "Sometimes I think we'll never escape the Cylons alive, so why not just go home. Oh Orion, it's so hard to protect all these ships. We've started to put gunnery on the civilian ships and we've started training civilians to man them. But some of these ships are in such bad shape. The Cylons tricked us, caught us by surprise and they've left us virtually defenseless." 'But if we can grab Gomoray with its defenses and weapons...' Orion thought to himself. "Well, we'll get what supplies we can from the Cylons now, maybe we can secure some more arms and ships. Enough of that. Tell me about you. What do you do now? Are you the top viper pilot or are you still competing with Apollo for that honor?" "Not exactly," Athena paused. "I'm a tactical technician on the Bridge." "What!" Orion exclaimed, stunned by the news. "Since Zac was killed I haven't wanted to press the issue with my father or Apollo," Athena hastened to explain. "That's the very reason you never wanted to be on the Galactic," Orion observed. "But it has kept you safe and alive and I'm grateful for that. The Pegasus was gone before you graduated, any other battlestar and I would have really lost you." Orion looked at her for a moment, "but I can see how miserable you are. You can transfer to the Pegasus now, Cain would never trap you on the Bridge." "That's perfect! I won't be separated from my family and we could be together, I mean if you want to..." Athena blushed at her forwardness, suddenly remembering all that they had left unsaid. "I think that was part of my plan," Orion smiled charmingly, his green eyes quelling any worries Athena had that he had found someone else as they sparkled with love and, well, lust. "You were one of the best viper fighters at the Academy, we could use you on the Gold Seal Squadron. Well, maybe being under my command might be unwise, but you could join another team. I can't imagine you on any bridge! Let's face it, sitting still was never your strong suit." "I know! I know! We can make plans after we get out of here, away from Gomoray," Athena got up and pulled Orion by the hand after her. Orion smiled at the animation on her face, that was the woman he remembered. Her and her brother Zac had been live wires at school and later at the Academy. Always making people laugh. He had missed laughing, Cain obviously didn't promote too much of that on his ship. Athena thought it might just be what they all needed. "Dietra should be waiting for us in the O Club! So kiss me again and let's party!" Athena threw her arms around his neck and kissed him with abandon. * * * * * * * * * * Athena, Orion and Dietra stood at the Pegasus' O-Club bar surrounded by friends, both old and new. The surprise reunion of the two warships bringing a verve that the warriors hadn't experienced in a long time. The exuberance was evident in the laughter and rushed words that flowed between them. As they began to recount Academy stories and old war stories, the conversation naturally took the "remember when someone did something or someone got embarrassed back at Academy" form. "Hey, Athena remember when Colonel Prate tried to embarrass you in chemistry class and asked you to recite the chemical properties and reactions of solium, an assignment which wasn't due for another quatron, all because he caught you listening to the Triad championship games through a hidden ear-receiver?" "Oh Lords, Briggs! That was so lame!" Athena laughed. "I must have missed than story, what happened?" someone asked. "She recited the chemical properties and reactions of 'Solina,' the woman we all knew Prate was dating. Three atoms of attraction..." "All right, all right, let's not go there. I was a bit, uh, I had trouble with authority back then," Athena explained turning a bit red in the face. "Anyway, Prate was one of those instructors who thought because I was the only daughter of Commander Adama I had to be put in my place. That always led to a bad reaction from me." "He couldn't very well get you in trouble since you did incorporate the proper facts and he was loath to have his love life broadcast to the entire Academy. He left you alone after that, and he never interrupted to your listening to the games ever again," Delta chimed in. "But I'm a very stolid type now I can assure you," Athena defended. "Starbuck and his steam burns might not agree!" yelled out an unidentified voice, obviously from Galactica. Orion looked at Athena with raised eyebrows. She grimaced and mouthed, "later." Dietra seeing the exchange quickly jumped in to change the subject. "Remember when Briggs reprogrammed the techno labs computers to bring up a picture of the Gymnastic Instructor in the shower?" Everyone burst out laughing. Athena looked at her friend with gratitude. Starbuck. Not a topic she wanted to bring up with Orion, yet. 'Not my crowning glory in maturity,' she thought to herself. 'Well, Orion,' she practiced in her head, 'I dated Starbuck after you 'died' and I followed him around like a stupid puppy and allowed him to humiliate me and I acted like a stupid child. Really alluring image.' Athena sighed inaudibly anticipating having to tell her old boyfriend how foolish she had been. "Athena, how about we go for a walk, alone, before you have to go back?" Orion whispered in her ear, startling her out of her musings. "Sure, let me just say goodbye." Athena walked over to Briggs, Delta and some of her other old Academy pals from the Pegasus and gave them hugs. "See you in a few centons Dietra," Athena waved. 'Might as well get this over with now. He may not want me to put in for that transfer after he hears how I've betrayed him.' Orion followed Athena, who was hurrying out of the Club, and grabbed her hand. "In a hurry to leave me?" he whispered seductively into her ear, or tried to as she rushed away. Athena made a sudden stop and Orion found himself practically pulling her along as his momentum continued to propel him forward. "Hey, I was just kidding," he stopped and turned towards the frozen woman. Orion's smile disappeared as he took in her frightened face. "Is this about Starbuck?" he asked perceptively. "Yes, it's kind of a long story," Athena blushed. "Then let's find somewhere more private," Orion started to lead her to a nearby storage room. Once inside he sat her down on some supply containers. "I know that you had a crush on him way back when. If you're worried because something..." Orion broke off suddenly. 'What if they're still together now?' he thought with a sinking feeling in his stomach. Athena saw the unspoken question in Orion's eyes and hurried to alleviate his immediate concern. "No, we're not together now; we were once, when I was first assigned to the Galactica. It's just not a very...um...it's not a story I'm proud of," Athena looked up into Orion's inquiring countenance. 'He's never judged you before, tell him this Athena,' she gave herself the courage to tell her tale. "Apollo asked him to 'watch' over me and well, one thing led to another. It got serious for a while, as much as it could anyway. He was still sort of hung up on someone back home and I wasn't completely over you. We were very dear friends," Athena hesitated to tell Orion that she had thought she loved Starbuck at one time. "I thought that I was in love with and after the Destruction, in all the emotional turmoil, he finally asked me for a commitment and I rejected him. I had just lost Mom and Zac. I couldn't handle the thought of being close to someone else, someone who might die on his next patrol. So I rejected him," Athena shrugged. "He didn't wait for me as I had waited for him. He acted like he had just been kidding. We dated for a little bit longer but he found someone else, I swear about three microns later." "And where do steam burns come into it? " Orion asked, prodding the rest of the story out of her. "This is where I am rather ashamed of my behavior. One time we were supposed to meet after my shift and he didn't show up. I found him in a launch tube with her, and in a fit of pique I pressed the steam purge. I can't believe I was so juvenile. We pretty much act as if we are polite acquaintances now. It's so weird to be explaining all this to you," Athena shook her head. "The scariest part is that I always felt like I was being unfaithful to you, especially now." "Athena, I was 'dead' so I can hardly be upset. Jealous maybe, but not upset or betrayed," Orion assured her. "I can see there's more." Athena nodded and looked away. "The steam purge story became public knowledge and the exploits of Athena and Starbuck and Cassi became a thing to watch. The IFB has even reported on our comings and goings - even when there is nothing to report." At Orion's questioning look she explained, "Inter-Fleet Broadcasting." "And Adama's daughter never gives up when she wants something, she's a fighter. That hasn't always made for good press. I'm sure it's not all that bad. They're just looking for something to fill the time," Orion commented. "Actually, it's a little more complicated than that. You can have one guess as to whom is the star reporter for the IFB. I'll give you a hint - she loves nothing more than interfering in my private life and she's a tenacious reporter." "Zara!" Orion exclaimed as Athena nodded in confirmation. Orion looked down at the ground, unsure how to feel. Zara had been another of their childhood friends and his girlfriend for many yahrens before he and Athena had fallen in love at the Academy. Zara hadn't taken the news well, even though they had been drifting apart even before he had left for school. Still, a part of him was glad that she had survived the Destruction. "So this is about me then." "No, this is about me or her, not you. This about revenge for stealing her boyfriend, as she puts it. Even though you two broke up long before I was in the picture romantically and even though she was planning on breaking up with you first. She thinks it's good reporting. It's not important, I just thought you'd want to know she had survived." "I'm still sorry that I am in some way connected to more pain for you." "You are in no way to blame for any of this Orion. I'm just glad you're here now," Athena stood and put her arms around him. Orion leaned his face into her hair and breathed deeply, savoring the closeness he had only felt in memories for the last two yahrens. They stood silently for another centon before Orion lifted his head and changed the subject. "I saw the longing in your eyes when everyone was talking about their battles and raids back there. We both know that you don't want to be stuck on the Bridge. Your restlessness is already obvious to me. Are you really doing Apollo and your father any favors by being unhappy? I know you agreed before to transfer, but I know you're going to hesitate to hurt your family in any way, but Athena you can't put your life on hold for your Father's sake. What about Apollo? It makes it easier on him doesn't it, leaving you to take care of your Father while he does what makes him happy? You have to do what makes you feel fulfilled as well." Athena was silent, Orion had hit a sore spot of long standing - the family pattern of Athena working to make everyone happy and Apollo letting her when it suited his purposes. His devastation at the loss of his wife and his new responsibilities as a father and leader causing Apollo to put more of the onus of caring for their Father on her. Not to mention the fact that he had still been smarting from Athena telling him to butt out of her and Starbuck's private relationship when the Destruction had occurred. He hadn't dared to pry since then. "I'm not sure that he knows. He doesn't interfere in my decisions. Besides, he's busy. The Fleet needs him," she defended her brother, as always. Orion was silent for a few microns. He knew he was treading in delicate territory. "I know how good Apollo was and I'm sure he's even better now," he said, referring to Apollo's piloting abilities. "You could be just as important in the defense of the Fleet in a viper. It is no more right to deprive the Fleet of you as it would be Apollo just to make your Father feel better. Adama's a warrior too Athena, he wouldn't make that sacrifice if given the choice. You've just let him avoid having to make it. The truth is Athena I don't want you in danger either, but we are all in danger just as we have been all our lives. I know you well enough to know that what you're doing is like a living death. I love you too much to smother you. I'm sure Adama and Apollo do too." "The Bridge is important, so is teaching. I love Boxey and the kids..." Athena broke off, suddenly tired of rationalizing her life. "Okay, I admit that I want to be a warrior, I want to fly a viper and visit the planets we encounter, but I can't desert my post in the middle of all this. I can't confront my father now. After we leave Gomoray I'll request a transfer to the Pegasus, or at least off the Bridge. I promise!" "Good." They kissed one more time and Orion walked Athena to the landing bay and her shuttle back to the Galactica. "Let's try to get some time off to be together soon." "Maybe we can go to the Rising Star after we make the fuel runs if we can manage to schedule our shifts together," Athena proposed. "I remember some good times on the Rising Star! You got a deal!" Orion smiled at Athena with anticipation. ~~~~~~~~~~~ Chapter 3 - Respite and Battle After Cain's destruction of the tankers and the impending fuel seizure tempers were flaring all over the Pegasus. Orion was relieved to get away from the situation before he ended up alienating someone, such as Athena's brother. None of Cain's warriors were graceful in their acceptance of the removal of their Commander and the appointment of Colonel Tigh as their interim leader. What had begun as a happy reunion of old friends and comrades was quickly turning into a war zone between the supporters of the two Commanders - Cain and Adama. The only thing that held Orion's own temper in check was the realization that he wasn't needed during the fuel transfer and he could sneak off to see Athena on the Galactica. All he had to do was avoid anyone who might ask where he was going and engage him in an argument. Orion took a deep breath and put the reasons for his upcoming date on the backburner and concentrated on piloting his viper the short distance to the Galactica. He intended to share the few short centars with Athena in relative peace. She had promised over the com-unit that she would arrange a private mid-cycle meal in her quarters, not having the time to go to the Rising Star. Orion suspected that her bunkmate Rigel would be understanding, but he really didn't care how it was arranged as long he got to spend this time with her. After all these yahrens he was worried he wouldn't know how to behave with her alone. A few stolen moments in a landing bay notwithstanding. * * * * * Athena ran her hand down her dress, waiting nervously for Orion to arrive. She had told him where her rooms were and knew that he would have no problem finding his way in the battlestar. They had agreed not to meet at the landing bay so that no one would see them and try to sidetrack them from their plans. Athena spun around, double checking the arrangements Rigel had helped her make before making herself scarce. The lighting was dimmed to provide a less austere atmosphere to what were essentially military quarters. Athena forced herself to sit down and stop fidgeting. She leaned back in her chair and smiled as she remembered retrieving the meal from the Galactica galley. "Athena," Clai, the Galactica head cook pushed past his assistant to personally take care of his special guest. "How lovely you look," he leaned back and took in her lavender dress. "Meeting someone special? I hope it isn't that scoundrel Starbuck!" "No, no. Nothing like that. I told you it was a special occasion and I meant it. It's Orion, he's on the Pegasus!" she couldn't help the smile that spread across her face, anymore than the accelerated beating of her heart thinking of her lost, found, love. A grin broke across Clai's features at the thought of the young warrior he had thought lost at Molecay all those yahrens ago. "Orion! I had hoped we would find him still kicking. No wonder you ordered my most special meal! Not that I wouldn't give it you anyway dear, but for that young man...it's good to see you choose a more fitting subject this time," Clai said his eyes twinkling with promises of treats for them all. "I thought you liked Starbuck Clai?" Athena smiled at Clai's about-face regarding the popular young warrior. "I do, he a fine gambler. He is not the right man for you, however. He has much growing up to do before he is worthy of a woman such as yourself. Those shoulders would be wasted." Athena rolled her eyes at Clai's blatant flattery. "You are such a flatterer."** Athena was startled from her reverie by the door chime. 'He's here! He's here!' she felt as excited as she ever had waiting for Orion back at the Academy. She took one more glance in the looking glass and smoothed her hair and dress before pressing the button to open the door. The smile on her face froze as she took in the sight before her. 'This is too good to be true!' she thought to herself with unabashed joy. 'I never thought I'd see him again.' Athena took in Orion's casual clothes, ignoring the bag in his hand which obviously carried his uniform. 'We have to make this evening last,' she told herself sternly as she took in Orion's well-muscled chest which was shown the great advantage by his partially unfastened shirt. She refused to think beyond the few centars they were going to share now. "You are beautiful," Orion whispered the awe obvious in his voice as he took in her body-skimming ankle length sheath which managed to conceal and still offer tantalizing glimpses of skin. He loved the way the lavender brought out the purple hues in her blue eyes. "I've missed you so much. I never thought I would see you like this outside my dreams." Athena ducked her head and blushed, mumbling a barely audible "thanks," clearly not used to such earnest admiration. Orion smiled, amazed that after all they had seen she still had the ability to blush. Athena looked up suddenly and put her hand on his arm. "For the next few centars let's not discuss my Father, Cain or the Cylons. Let's enjoy each other as much as we can before the team is sent down and the battle begins. I want this time to only be filled with good things. This is about just us." Orion nodded in agreement and dropped his bag as he came fully into her quarters. The door closed swiftly behind him as he reached forward and pulled her into his embrace. * * * * * * * * * A centar later they were sitting at the quarter's small table eating a superb meal of fresh fruits and vegetables from the agro-ship. "I was so sick of mushies, this is fantastic!" Athena enthused. "This fruit juice, made with real fruit! This is the higher plane of being! Clai came through, as always. Starbuck introduced us, apparently they used to know each other Caprica before both ending up on the G." "Ah, it didn't used to be this easy to please you. Now all I have to do is bring you some fresh citrus and your mine. However, I managed to find something else you love," Orion grinned and reached for the package he had brought with him which he handed to Athena. She looked down at the box and noticed it was slightly chilled. She looked up at Orion for a micron before turning her attention to opening the package. She gasped as she gently lifted out a lavender colored Scorpion Orchid. Tears came to her eyes as she took the flower and remembered decorating Apollo and Serina's sealing ceremony favorite with the same flower. Starbuck had been missing back then. Athena mentally shook away the memories, she would not allow sadness to ruin this meal. She smiled gently at Orion as she buried her nose in the blossom and deeply inhaled the slightly sweet yet exotic scent. "Remember when we first went to Scorpia together and you fell in love with that flower?" "I also fell in love with you," Athena whispered, lost in the memory of their impromptu trip. Athena and Orion had suddenly found themselves at loose ends one weekend. Athena's Father had canceled a visit and Orion had just broken up with his girlfriend Zara, again. The two friends had set off on a few cycle trip in order to alleviate their disappointment and ended up unveiling their mutual passion. "You said that you would always be mine, I wanted to relive those times, those words," Orion clasped Athena's free hand. "I'm yours, even without the flower," Athena said as she again sniffed the deceptively fragile looking blossom. They smiled at each other silently for a few centons, studying the changes the yahrens had wrought in the object of their love. Athena was sitting in her chair, with her knees folded up in front of her. Orion admired the contrast, her sensual femininity with the childlike posture and enthusiasm over their fare. Athena, meanwhile, internalized Orion's broadened chest and more chiseled facial features. Admiring the changes that while wrought through tragedy and lost yahrens had made him more handsome. Orion suddenly let go and rose from his seat and walked over to Athena. He knelt down slowly in front of her and placed his hands on her knees. "I've missed you." Orion reached his right hand and gently caressed her cheek. "There's so much I've missed, but talking my best friend and kissing my best friend are at the top of the list." Orion rose and gently placed his lips on hers. Athena closed her eyes against the gentle pressure, her lips tingling as they always did when touching his. Athena placed the flower on the table out of the way and moved her arms around his shoulder and moved into Orion's embrace. Their bodies melted together. Time and space no barrier to the old feelings sweeping over them. Orion moved his hand to brush back Athena's hair so he could place his cheek against hers, skin to skin. Orion smiled, his eyes still open as he took in the surroundings of this joyful reunion. Athena suddenly felt Orion stiffen and pull away. She was so surprised she didn't even try to keep her hold on him as she felt the chill of the room sweep across her previously warm body. She watched Orion clench his fists and turn away. She hesitated only a micron before walking towards him and placing a hand on his arms. She felt his tightly coiled muscles beneath her hand. 'What is going on?' she wondered at the abrupt change in moods. Orion had never been a particularly moody person. Orion looked up at the overhead, avoiding Athena's gaze. 'Why am I so upset? How can I explain this to her?' Orion started to laugh at himself. His last thought was so ridiculous it broke him out of the haze that had surrounded him before he pulled out of Athena's arms. This was Athena, the girl he had known forever. If he couldn't tell her what he was feeling, he couldn't tell anyone. "I'm crazy that's all. It was that, I suddenly saw that," Orion pointed over Athena's shoulder. Athena new without turning around what he was pointing at. It was a photograph of her, Boxey, and Starbuck. It had been taken a couple of sectars before. Starbuck had his arm around Athena as they both tried to hold onto Boxey as Apollo took the picture in the Rejuvenation Center. They had were smiling and looking joyous. Athena studied the picture for a few microns. She thought it the height of irony that in the picture they looked like a loving family when in fact they were only together only because they had agreed not to let Boxey see the conflicts between them. She and Starbuck had still been half-heartedly seeing each other, but it was becoming more obvious by that time that Starbuck wasn't going to forgive her for her unthinking rebuff of his less than romantic proposal of marriage. Before Athena could think of anything to say Orion continued speaking. "I'm not jealous of Starbuck. Well, not of Starbuck in particular," he amended. "Seeing that picture just made me realize all the time we've missed. It suddenly seemed, for a micron, that you had moved on and had this husband and family. You might well have after all this time. It shocked me." Orion looked at Athena curiously. "I do have to ask why you have a picture of Starbuck in here." Athena moved forward and put her hand on Orion's arm. "Orion," she began tenderly, "Boxey insisted I put that picture there since we made him pose for it. It's not because Starbuck and I are a couple or I want us to be. I think Boxey well knows we are uncomfortable with each other now and wants us to suffer for trying to fool him. He is a precocious child," Athena explained with a tight smile. "As for the time we've lost, nothing can change that but we can make up for all that time when we get out of this system." Athena stopped stroking Orion's arm when she noticed his eyes darting nervously around the room. "There's something you're not telling me!" she exclaimed. After a few microns Orion still hadn't answered. "It's Cain!" she suddenly realized. "He has something else up his sleeve, destroying the tankers and putting the entire Fleet in more danger wasn't enough for him!" "The Commander did what he had to! Unlike your Father he's a warrior who knows how to fight! When to fight, not turn tail and run!" Orion retorted angrily, evading her question. Athena drew back as if she had been slapped. "You take that back! My Father is a leader who cares about his people, not like some people who are on a nihilistic ego-trip! We have thousands of lives to protect. What the Frak does Cain intend to do now? Destroy a Fleet ship and pretend that it was the Cylons so that we'll be coerced into doing what he wants?" Cain looked away, unable to meet her eyes. "I'm sorry Athena, I don't mean to put your Father down, but he shouldn't have removed Cain from his post. It's insulting and foolish. I never thought your Father was so concerned with his ego and position before," Orion said stiffly. Athena took a step backwards, as if unsure who the person standing before her was. Indeed, she wasn't. This was not the Orion she had known most of her life. This was another mindless worshipper of the "Living Legend" as Cain insisted he was. "He's trying to protect what's left of our people without risking their lives unnecessarily like Cain. Cain is the one with ego problems, the one who thinks he can make decisions for the rest of humankind." Orion closed his eyes to the hurt shining out of Athena's eyes. Orion didn't understand how they had gotten to this point. Was he letting his jealousy get the best of him? She would never see Cain's side against her father. He let out a breathe that visibly deflated the tenseness in his posture. "What are we fighting about? I'm sorry about what I said about your Father. There's nothing to argue about, I know Adama didn't make his decision lightly or based on his ego. That doesn't mean I have to like his actions, but we shouldn't argue about it." Athena felt tears prick the back of her eyes. The things Orion had said about her father hurt. She wished she could attribute all he had said to jealousy over the picture of her and Starbuck in each other's arms. She knew, however, those things had to have come from a kernel of truth. Cain's warriors had always been known for their almost blind loyalty, Athena just hoped Orion still had some clarity left. She looked away, unable to decide if she should just let it drop or if was something that would just come back at them. "I am deeply sorry to have said that," Orion tried to get through again. Orion and Athena were standing silently facing each other across the room, like fighters in their respective corners. 'I've gone too far,' Orion thought hopelessly as he saw the uncertainty in Athena's eyes. He couldn't believe he had ruined their time together. He knew that it could possibly be their last, with the Cylons in front of them and Cain's determination to invade Gomoray. "Athena," he moved toward her. He stopped as he saw her move back and turn away. He saw her hand surreptitiously move to her cheek. 'She's wiping away tears that I caused,' Orion thought in anguish. He couldn't hold himself back anymore and he strode purposefully towards her and put his arms around her. "I am so sorry Athena, I didn't mean to ruin our time together. Can we just put this behind us, at least for right now?" he pleaded. Athena turned in Orion's arms and put her head on his shoulder and melted into him. She closed her eyes and reveled in the physical safety she felt in his arms, trying to put the past few centons out of her mind. She had forgotten how short their time was right now. "You're right, let's not argue right now." That she thought there were things they would need to discuss later was clear in her tone. "Let's enjoy what little time we have left now," she looked up, her blue eyes virtually clear of the turbulence of a few centons ago. Orion smiled and leaned in to capture Athena's lips. Her efforts to throw off their recent unpleasantness causing his chest to tighten, his love for this woman increasing even more. Just as Athena moved her hand to mesh her fingers in Orion's hair the red alert klaxon and lights began to pulse. Athena and Orion sprung apart, both obviously startled and simultaneously disappointed. Orion moved closed and placed his hand gently on Athena's cheek. "It's been amazing Athena, this cycle, it's more than I had ever hoped to have," Orion said quietly. "I guess you have to get back to your Viper," Athena said quietly, trying not to let her distress show in her voice, though her heart was pounding so loud she thought he could surely hear it. Orion grabbed Athena to him and kissed her intensely. "Listen, I love you. I am grateful we've had this time together. If anything should happen..." "We'll have plenty of time to talk," Athena rushed in, not letting Orion finish. She was about to continue when she saw a strange glint in Orion's eyes. "Orion? What's going on?" "Nothing, nothing. Working closely with Cain for the last couple of yahren, I don't take anything for granted. Please promise me, if I don't make it you won't stop living. You'll still get yourself off that Bridge. Promise me!" Orion insisted until he was Athena nod. He grabbed her and held her tight one last time before grabbing the bag containing his uniform and running out the door. Athena stood staring at the empty portal for a few microns, suddenly feeling as if she was caught in a dream and Orion had never been. The thought was gone before it had time to take hold and she turned to hurriedly change and get to the Bridge. * * * * * * * * * Athena ran onto the bridge where Adama stared intently at the battle being played out on the scanner screens and the bridge screen. She walked up to Tigh and he handed her the latest scanner data. She studied the information as she headed for her console. Rigel had simultaneously sent her scans to Athena's console and it became immediately apparent that things were not looking good for the fleet. A very large task force of Cylons was approaching the Fleet. "Fifty microns and closing," Rigel's abbreviated announcement threw the command bridge into pandemonium as the ship geared up for battle. "Forty-five microns and closing," Athena took over the countdown. "It's the largest task force since the Destruction." Athena heard Adama murmur to Omega behind her. "They really mean to finish us this time," Adama finished grimly. Just then Cain came charging onto the Bridge. Athena was surprised he was still on the Galactica and hadn't just left for the Pegasus on his own command. "What is it? What have they got?" Cain demanded from Athena. "We're not certain yet," Adama stepped over and answered for her. "From the size of the attack fighter force on our scanners, I'd say there are at least three baseships closing in on us." Cain clenched his fists and swore to himself before turning his full gaze on Adama. "You were right, Adama. And I was wrong. Horribly wrong. If we had attacked the ground base, the Fleet would have been completely at their mercy. Totally defenseless. I was a fool." Athena dropped her handheld coordinate modulator in surprise at Cain's humble words. Omega shot her a smirk as she bent over to pick it up. "It's no time for self-recriminations. What I need right now is your tactical wizardry. They didn't use much more than three baseships to wipe out our entire Fleet at Cimtar," Adama pushed on. "Yes, but they had the advantage of surprise. It might just be on our side this time," Cain said with the wonder of a genius coming up with a plan. "Pull out the Pegasus?" Adama asked, beginning to catch on. "Exactly, it's on the far side of the Fleet and I doubt it's on their scanners yet. They don't know we've got two battlestars. I'll bring it around and squeeze them in between us. That is, if I've got my ship back?" Cain asked with feigned humility. "Get going Cain, and don't take too long getting into position. It's going to be awfully close," Adama was too worried to smile at Cain's attempt at humor. "All right," Cain answered. "But I'll be burning up a lot of fuel. I'll practically have to make light speed," Cain said on his way out. "Twenty-five microns and closing," Athena said loudly on the silent Bridge. A micron later the squadrons launched. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Chapter 4 - On the Razor's Edge Athena watched as Apollo, Orion and Tolen headed to meet Cain and Adama in the War Room. In the previous centar The Pegasus had come out from behind the Fleet and had successfully scared away the Cylons. Athena wished fleetingly that she had the time to join the men in their planning, but she was kept busy watching for the return of the baseships while the Galactica crews repaired the landing bays. As Tigh's assistant she had the rank and clearance to be in there, but manpower was short due to the task force's attack and she refused the desert her post. From a tactical standpoint she knew what was going to be decided. The Fleet didn't have the fuel to flee a safe distance. They needed fuel and there was only one place to get it - Gomoray. How her father was going to deal with Cain was something, however, that she wanted to watch. Her stomach tightened at the prospect of an all out assault on the now-Cylon city. Her own scans had confirmed that there were three baseships, plus the ground forces to contend with. Two battlestars and over 220 assorted civilian ships unable to sustain to light speed for a long enough distance due to the fuel shortage made the odds look bleak. 'We're going to have to send ground teams in disable their defenses,' Athena thought with a shudder. She knew who would be on those teams - Apollo, Starbuck and Orion. While she felt confident in their abilities, she wasn't sure she could face the loss of any of those dear to her again. * * * * * * * Orion, privileged by Athena's standards to be in the War Room, was only listening to the commanders strategize with half his mind. The moment he dreaded was almost at hand, saying goodbye again to Athena. Working with Cain as closely as he had over the past yahrens he had known the moment would come. One way or another he would be out there proving his mettle to his Commander. While he didn't expect to die, no good warrior could win with that attitude, he didn't expect Cain to throw his lot in with the civilian fleet. Cain, he knew, trusted Adama to take care of them and would believe he would better serve humanity trailing them and protecting them from the Cylon threat from the background and according to his own terms. 'All the fun without the responsibility,' Orion thought wryly as for the first time he could not whole-heartedly support what he suspected his Commander was about to do. Orion was in it all the way, despite his personal feelings he would never desert Cain. He would do everything that was asked. Even sacrifice his own life on a suicide mission. Orion was pulled back from his personal reverie by Apollo's constant stare. He had heard that Apollo had some bad run ins with his ship mates. Despite their childhood together Apollo still appeared to question which side he stood on. Orion couldn't blame him. He nodded at the other Captain trying to assure him that the animosity of his squadron wasn't shared by him. He loved the man's sister after all and had been best friends with his brother his whole life. Cain's hand tamping down on his shoulder interrupted the silent communication. "You'll lead the team on the far side of the city while Apollo's team heads for the batteries in the center," Cain reiterated his decision. Orion looked over at Adama and saw that the other Commander still had some reservations about Cain's plans. Orion's jaw tensed. They didn't have any other choice, what was Adama delaying them for? Orion felt Cain's tension as he increased his hold on Orion's shoulder. Apparently the other Commander noticed Adama's reticence too. "I'd like to see you in my quarters, Commander," Adama turned to Cain before walking out the door clearly expecting Cain to follow. Cain complied. Orion walked over to Apollo. "What's going on here? There is hardly any other option." "I believe my Father is worried about a repetition of the tanker incident," Apollo said quietly. Orion felt the tension leave his body. Despite his words to Athena, he couldn't honestly blame Adama for that call. Strategically the Fleet Commander had to make sure that he took all factors into account. Cain's impulsiveness would be one of those factors. Orion just nodded and looked over at Tigh and Tolen who were watching each other warily. Orion glanced over at Apollo and saw that he was noticing the same thing. The two Captains felt that last remnants of tension slip away as they shared a private grin, respectful and yet amused at the loyalty being displayed before them. * * * * * * * * Not surprisingly the two Commander's private discussion was short and before he knew it Orion found himself following behind Tolen and Cain back to the Pegasus. He was about to tell Tolen and Marius he would meet then at the Shuttle when Cain's girlfriend came running up to him. Tolen turned and looked at Orion as the pair talked motioning him towards the Bridge and Athena. 'I guess if the Commander can say goodbye to his girlfriend?' Orion mentally shrugged as he headed towards the Bridge. * * * * * * * * Athena's head turned the moment Orion walked onto the Bridge. Tigh had already filled her in to the impending ground missions and she had feared she wouldn't get to talk to him before he left. She looked towards Omega who nodded his consent for her to take a centon to say goodbye. She led Orion to an alcove just off the Bridge. Athena had her back to the wall, Orion's arms were planted on either side of her head. "So you're going on the ground mission." "Yeah," Orion leaned in closer. Athena continued to look at their meshed feet. "Good luck, may the Lords of Kobol be with you," she mumbled. A gentle smile spread across Orion's face and he moved his right hand to place his fingers gently on Athena's chin. He tilted her face up and looked into her beautiful blue eyes. "I'll be careful. You haven't seen the last of me, I promise. We have some unfinished business after all." Orion leaned in and placed his lips gently against hers. After a few microns they were kissing passionately. Before she knew it Orion was pulling away and she was heading back to the Bridge, their centon was up. Athena walked back to her unit in a daze from which she was awakened by her brother's hand on her shoulder. She turned in her seat and Apollo knelt down in front of her. 'Apollo must be worried if he's come here now,' Athena felt tears pricking her eyes, again. "Goodbye little sister," Apollo pulled Athena into his arms for a quick hug. "I've left Boxey with Baral while I'm gone. Watch Father and I'll watch Starbuck. I love you." Before Athena could question Apollo's enigmatic comment he was gone and she turned and became engrossed in her duties. She had to make sure the Shuttles dropping off the teams didn't run into any defense systems or Cylon patrols, take damage repair reports and help Omega coordinate efforts to secure the raw materials needed for the repairs and the upcoming mission. Now was not the time to dwell on her personal worries. As the shuttle prepared to launch Athena saw a grim expression cross over Adama's features. No one but her and Tigh would have recognized it for what it was - Adama was worried about his son and the fate of the last human survivors. Athena caught his eye and gave an encouraging nod, reminding him that he wasn't alone. Adama smiled tenderly at his daughter before turning his attention back to the view screens. After the shuttles took off she pulled the team rosters up in order to see how many people had to be clear for jumps at the multiple drop off points. She was stunned to see Sheba and Bojay's names, as well as Cassi's on Apollo's team. Athena had a strong feeling that Cain did not realize that Sheba and Cassi were along for the ride. Why else would the be on Apollo's team instead of Orion's? 'Cassi,' Athena thought, 'I hope she doesn't endanger the mission. I wish I was along!' She once again brushed away her personal frustrations and concerns and concentrated on finding a safe spot for the team to jump off. * * * * * * * Athena was the first to see the explosions from the surface of Gomoray. As she transmitted her findings to the rest of the Bridge she turned towards her Father. He smiled at her as he gave the orders for the squadrons to launch and lead the fuel tankers to the Cylon depot to get the fuel. Both Father and daughter were still waiting impatiently for news of the safety of the ground teams, their apparent success notwithstanding. Within five centons, Omega walked over and told her they were awaiting word from Jolly who had reported a squadron of fighters had appeared seemingly out of nowhere and that out of Apollo's team only Bojay had been injured but would recover fully thanks to Cassi's efforts. Before she could react to the good news, another message came through. "Jolly coming through on the scramble circuit," she called out and patched it through to the main screens. Jolly informed the confused Bridge crew that the raiders had seemed to engage the vipers, but most of them had actually landed on the planet or were flying patterns over the area as if they protecting something, or someone. The Fleet, however, lacked the fuel and the time to figure out what was going on. As long as the raiders weren't pursuing, the Colonials continued to gather fuel as fast as they could. Three baseships were on their way. Athena then received a message from the Pegasus Core Command. "Sir!" Adama and Tigh turned at the urgency in her voice. "Jolly just informed the Pegasus that the Cylon squadron came from a fourth baseship that has now left the area! Cain believes they were escorting the Imperious Leader! We could have had him!" Adama put his hand on his daughter's shoulder. "Perhaps that's true, but our first concern is to bring our Fleet to safety. The Imperious Leader seems to have saved us today. Where are our tankers now?" "On their way back to us. Our ground team is aboard the Pegasus. Bojay was injured, everyone else is fine. They're launching shortly in vipers from the Pegasus." Adama returned to his position next to Tigh, while Tigh motioned for someone to broadcast the viper communications for the whole bridge to hear. Athena watched as the three base ships heading toward the fleet. 'How could they hope to defeat three baseships and protect the Fleet?' Adama tightened his grip on the bridge railing, "Lt. Dray, what is the status of Fleet formation?" "Sir, the Fleet is almost completely swung around and the fighter escorts are leading them away to the rendezvous point. All ships appear ready for immediate flight and light speed capabilities." "Good, good." Adama stopped speaking to watch and listen to the fierce battle being played out before him. The fire was so thick that vipers and raiders alike were being picked off. The Cylon losses, however, were much more severe. The bridge crew watched as the fighters from the Pegasus blew a corridor through the Cylon forces. Unfortunately, there were so many of them that the battlestar was still being hit from all sides. Cain, however, kept his ship on a straight course, not bothering to engage the raiders. The bridge crew seemed to wince as they heard Cain deny his daughter permission to regroup the Silver Spar Squadron to protect the Pegasus, which had taken some direct hits. "The bridge of the Pegasus has been hit!" Athena called out. "There is one casualty. It's Colonel Tolen," she finished in a quieter tone. The Pegasus, however, continued on a straight course, beyond the scanners of the Galactica. Adama and Tigh didn't comment, but if possible looked even grimmer than before. Just then Sheba, Cain's daughter was hit. 'This is why I can't have Athena out there!' Adama reminded himself. 'I couldn't bear to have both of my remaining children taking such a risk,' Adama rationalized, knowing how much Athena wanted to be out there. He could see the desire written plainly on her face at that micron. He looked away and turned his attention back to the scene playing out before his eyes and ears. "Commander," Tigh called catching his Commander's attention, "the ground crews report that fuel loading is almost complete. We've already taken more fuel than we had hoped." "Sir," Athena broke in, "scanners are picking up a large body of ships heading our way, warbook identifies them as Cylon Raiders." "It looks like Cain's plan didn't work," Adama said in a low voice, "either he wasn't able to lead them away or there were too many of them. I don't even know if he's still out there!" Adama and Tigh continued their hushed conversation. Athena tuned the two men out and concentrated on giving Rigel the coordinates to relay to the squadrons. The two women looked at each other grimly for a micron before getting back to business. "Lieutenant Athena, how long until intercept?" Adama asked. "Twenty centons and closing, Sir. The Pegasus is launching their Vipers now." Athena had been informed by Pegasus Core Command that Boomer, Starbuck and Apollo were launching with the Pegasus squadrons. She had been unable to get a report of Orion's whereabouts. She said a silent prayer for their safety. This was the part she hated most, sitting helpless on the Bridge, only able to hope that the people she cared about weren't hurt. Not being able actually do anything more than make sure they were aware of the dangers around them. She wanted to face the dangers and defeat them with them. "We'll never make it. It finally looks like we've just plain run out of time. And luck. Lord help us. If Cain hasn't gotten himself killed, perhaps he can get back to us in time to..." Adama shook his head. "Athena, see if you can get me a long-range scan on the Pegasus." Athena complied. 'I can't believe this!' she started at what she discovered. "Sir, telemetry coming through is confusing. According to the readings, the Pegasus is on a direct course toward the Cylon baseships!" Tigh leaned over and checked her readings. "He must have resumed a course toward them when he was unsuccessful in leading their fighters away." "If he ever attempted to lead them away," Adama stated quietly. "But that was the plan," Tigh answered, confused. "No Tigh," Adama replied, "that was our plan. It was never his. The fool. Athena, priority communication on scramble, get me Cain!" "Yes, sir, coming through." Suddenly Athena realized what Orion had meant. He had suspected Cain would veer from the plan and go his own way, even to the point of making a suicide run if everything else failed, but whatever he did he wouldn't be with the Fleet! 'Damn him!' Athena thought, 'Orion is going to go with him!' Cain's face appeared on the monitor screen, his face haggard. "You're looking well, Adama," he said jauntily. "I trust the skies over Gomoray will remain clear for some time yet." "Cain, what is your present course?" Cain grinned. "You wouldn't be asking me that if you didn't already know and before you order me to change course, forget it. I've dispatched all my nonessential personnel to the Fleet." "We've got incoming Cylon fighters heading right for us and you're going to kill everyone aboard the Pegasus!" Adama responded harshly. "You were not to jeopardize lives needlessly, we agreed!" "Adama, we see things differently. I think I can promise you that you won't have to shoot your way out of Gomoray's atmosphere. You and the Fleet will be safe," Cain responded calmly. "And what about your crew?" Adama asked. "If my plan works those ships on your scanners will shortly turn around and come back my way. By the time they get here, there may not be a place for them to land!" Cain answered. "Cain! By all that's holy, will you listen to me?" said Adama desperately. "You can accomplish the same thing by veering away from those baseships at the last micron. Don't attempt to take them on! You can't win!" The commander of the Pegasus shook his head. "Then their fighters will be able to refuel and go after you and your fleet," he said. "No Adama. There is no choice. At the very least, I have to get rid of one or two of their baseships to prevent them from overwhelming you." "You realize that I could relieve you of your command," Adama said, playing his last card. "Adama, I beg of you, don't make my last battle an act of mutiny. Send me with your blessing," Cain almost sounded humble. Almost. Adama sighed. There was nothing he could do, nothing he could say. Cain was determined to live up to his nickname "The Juggernaut." He could not be deterred from his course. "I cannot give you my blessing, Cain. But I send my prayers to you and each member of your crew." "Thank you Adama. And perhaps for the final time, Cain out." The screen went blank. * * * * * * * * * * At Tigh's command, Athena switched long-range scans to the main screen. Everyone was silent as they watched Cain's ship head towards the baseships. 'What about the Pegasus squadrons?' Athena wondered. 'Are they destroyed with the Pegasus? Where the frak is Orion?' she searched among the vipers on her screen. Tigh came over and was standing over her shoulders watching her screen for the approach of the raiders. The Colonel surreptitiously grabbed his surrogate daughter's hand and squeezed it for a micron before letting go. Athena was grateful that he didn't mouth any useless platitudes or false hopes. "Commander!" Tigh yelled out, amazed. "The incoming Cylons have suddenly turned around and headed back the other way! It doesn't make any sense!" "Yes, it makes perfect sense," Adama said. "Baltar has recalled them to save his own skin, just as Cain knew he would." "He's really going to attack the three base ships! I can't believe it!" Rigel exclaimed. "Believe it. Omega, make sure that the Fleet is ready to get out of here!" Adama commanded. "The Pegasus is transferring nonessential personnel to the Fleet and their injured to the Galactica," someone's voice called out in the midst of the chaos. 'Orion is going with him,' Athena tightened her grip on her console, watching as the scans now revealed ships leaving the Pegasus as it headed towards to baseships. She suddenly saw two vipers approach the other battlestar at sublight speed. Even without their identification markers switched on she knew they were Starbuck and Apollo. "Commander, Colonel, come look at this!" The two men responded to the urgency in her voice knowing Athena was not one to demand their attention for something trivial in the midst of battle. "Captain Apollo and Lieutenant Starbuck have left their squadron and are approaching the Pegasus." "Put their communications on," Colonel Tigh ordered. "They're trying to help the Pegasus," Adama stated quietly. "That'll really even the odds now," Athena said bitterly. Adama put a calming hand on his daughter's shoulder. Just then, the communications from the Vipers began transmitting to the entire Bridge and things began to move in slow motion for Athena. Once again she was sitting on the Bridge, watching and listening, as someone she loved was in danger and about to lose his life. Once again, her brother and his wingmate were trying to do all they could to save everyone, once again she was powerless to help them. Orion was out there about to get himself killed, if he wasn't already dead, and there was nothing she could do about it. She listened as Apollo and Starbuck ran interference for the Pegasus and tricked the Cylons into believing the Fleet had squadrons that didn't even exist. She watched as the Pegasus approached the baseships. Suddenly there was an explosion and then the entire scene was one huge fireball. The scanners couldn't even detect what was happening behind the massive explosions. As the Galactica headed away from Gamoray no one could see what became of the Pegasus. Everyone watching had a pretty good idea though. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Chapter 5 - A New Journey Athena watched as Apollo and Starbuck's ships headed away from the explosion and the Pegasus disappeared from sight. She dug her nails into her hands. 'You will not lose composure this time!' She told herself fiercely, remembering her outburst after hearing Zac die. This time instead Athena stared impassively at everything going on around her. She continued to monitor her zones and make sure that the rest of the Fleet was in proper formation, and trying not to think about the fact that she never received word from or about Orion. As the Fleet sped away from the scene, Athena confirmed her release from emergency duty with Tigh and ran to the landing bay. There were so many ships landing, maybe Rigel didn't clear Orion's, maybe she was too busy to tell her. Maybe... A centar passed and Athena watched everyone who arrived, helping the bay crews where she could to pass the time, desperately hoping Orion would appear. Deep down she knew that Orion was not among them, that he had gone back to serve with his commander. Even unto death. As any worthy warrior would. For a centon she didn't think she was strong enough to withstand the loss of him again. There was so little else of their old lives left. She wondered if he had really been there. Had it been the man she had known and loved all those yahrens ago? There were so many questions they didn't have time to answer. She knew she should be grateful for the second chance to say goodbye. Maybe later she could find that strength. As the landing bay emptied out Athena stayed and looked out at the stars and tried really hard not to be angry with the man who had once again left her. Athena had never been so tired but knew that sleep would not come easy that sleep period. Apollo and Starbuck saw her standing forlornly and watching as if she waited for one more viper. Apollo told Starbuck to go on ahead. "Athena," Apollo walked up to his sister. He reached his hand out as if to touch her arm, but pulled away at the last moment. She didn't notice the movement as she continued to stare into space. "He went with Cain. That's if he even got off Gomoray, which no one seems able to confirm." Athena continued to stare straight ahead, working hard to keep her face immobile and expressionless. "I know he got off Gamoray, I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner. Before we left the Pegasus, he told me to give this to you," Apollo opened his palm and inside was a Captain's insignia. Orion's symbol of rank. "He said to talk to Bojay? Do you know him?" Athena took the pin carefully between her fingers, tears coming to her eyes despite her efforts to remain stoic. She turned looked up into her brother's eyes. "Thank you," she whispered brokenly, unable to finish answering the rest of his questions. This time, without hesitation, Apollo reached out and put his hand on his sister's face and wiped away some of her tears. He then raised his other arm and brought her into his embrace. He buried his face in her hair hiding the tears in his own eyes, his sister's pain reminding him of Serina's death. The brother and sister stood for a moment in each other's silent embrace comforting each other's loss. Apollo was the first to pull away. "I probably should know what to say right now, but I don't," Apollo whispered, looking down at his feet, suddenly feeling helpless. Athena smiled tremulously. "The only thing I've ever come up with in these situations is that there is nothing to say to make it better," she sighed. "Even knowing that doesn't help one bit. He knew he wasn't coming back. There was so much I wanted to say. So much I wanted to ask." Apollo realized for the first time that Athena was the only one who hadn't offered him trite phrases when he lost Serina. She always made herself available, however, whenever he needed to talk or vent. Apollo suddenly felt better realizing he could do something for his sister. "How about another hug from your big brother? It's about all I have to offer." "I do need my big brother," Athena laughed through her tears. "And I need my little sister." Apollo hugged her again. "Let's go find Dad and Boxey." "Okay," came Athena's muffled answer. * * * * * * * * * Starbuck entered the Life Center and looking for Cassiopeia. He was told that she was in the back room with Sheba. He headed and stood in the doorway, watching for a few centons Cassi talking quietly with her former lover's daughter. Starbuck didn't bother to alert them to his presence before he left silently. Cassi looked up as soon Starbuck turned away and watched him leave. She hadn't acknowledged his presence because she didn't feel prepared to face him yet. She knew him well enough to know that one had to choose their words carefully when dealing with a hurt Starbuck. Cassi just had never before been the person who had hurt him. She turned back and continued to talk to Sheba for a few more centons. After she left Sheba's bedside, Cassi stretched her back, tired from her trip to Gamoray and centars on duty at the Life Center. She confirmed her leave with the other Med Techs on duty and headed for her quarters, thinking, despite her best intentions, of the events of the past few cycles. Cain was gone and his daughter wanted believed he had survived the baseship explosions and headed at light speed into deep space. For Sheba's sake Cassi hoped so, but Cassi was a practical woman and she already knew she wasn't going to spend time figuring out what ifs. As far as she was concerned Cain was gone and Starbuck was there, choices didn't have to be made. But Starbuck, as cool as he tried to act, would have to be reassured. Cassi realized that Starbuck's appearance in the Life Center meant that they still had a chance. She just wasn't prepared to take it until she had had some sleep, until they both had had some sleep. * * * * * * * * * * * Athena left her Father's quarters where Apollo and Adama were trying to convince Boxey he had go to sleep. The experiences of the past few cycles had left her with little patience for a stubborn child, no matter how much she adored him. Besides, she wanted to see how her friend Sheba was doing. Then she had to gather her courage to find out what message this Bojay had for her. Athena entered the Life Center and asked where she could find Sheba and if she could visit with her. "I believe she may be sleeping, but you can take a peek if you promise not to disturb her Athena." Athena smiled her thanks to Med Tech Arak and headed in the direction he pointed. Sheba was lying in a bed with her eyes closed, but as soon as Athena passed the threshold those eyes opened. Sheba smiled when she saw her friend. "Hey Tina," Sheba whispered. Athena pretended to skulk into the room. "Hey Sheba, how are you feeling?" "Like I got shot by a Cylon." Athena winced at that answer. "Ooh, I asked for that." "What happened, after I left the Pegasus? Cassi wouldn't tell me details. I knew Dad was going to go after the three base ships, could you see anything? Did he get through or did he..." Sheba was unable to voice even the possibility of failure for her father. Athena sighed in resignation. Obviously Cassi thought it wise not to divulge the information while Sheba was still groggy, but Athena knew her friend would rest better knowing what she had to face instead of wondering and letting her imagination get the best of her. "No I couldn't see anything on the Bridge either on the view screen or the scanners. Not even Apollo and Starbuck could tell, and they were the closest to the Pegasus. Those two helped deflect a lot of the ships by pretending to be Orange and Purple squadrons," Athena broke off, tears coming to her eyes, memories of her last view of the Pegasus flashing through her mind. "Apollo did that? And Starbuck? That was...pretty great of them considering how they felt about Cain. Well, knowing my Dad, he probably went to light speed through the debris and we'll be hearing from him again in a few yahren after he finishes off the rest of the Alliance," Sheba said with the bravado and never say defeat attitude she learned from her Father. Athena looked down at the floor and squeezed Sheba's hand, "he may just have done that." She looked back up and looked Sheba directly in the eyes. "If anyone could win this one it is your Father! Orion promised he would be back." "Orion stayed with my father didn't he?" Sheba asked, purposefully changing the subject away from her concerns. At Athena's silent nod, she continued, "Well, while we're waiting I have a couple of yahrens to fill you in on." "Well, you needn't do that right now, I should go, let you rest," Athena stated, not wanting to tell Sheba that she wasn't so sure there was anything to wait for. Sheba kept her grip on Athena's hand. "Please stay. I'll go crazy trapped in here alone." Athena nodded her assent. "Tell me everything that's happened to you since the Destruction. Tell me about this quest for...Earth? Isn't that some mythological story? From the Book of Kobol, I think?" "I don't think I have the energy to explain all that now. Let my Father do it, he'd love a new captive audience. Even Boxey's patience is wearing thin," Athena quipped to lighten the atmosphere. "Okay, new topic. How about your brother Apollo? I really annoyed him didn't I? He's still so pompous! Brave, but full of attitude." "He's had a rough time the last few sectars, he's not usually that, uh, uptight. I'm sure he was a bit surprised you caught him by surprise like that. He's not used to anything taking him by surprise, nothing pleasant anyway." Athena's mind began to wander. 'They're both so fired up about each other, this could be just what they both need to stop their minds from dwelling on their losses?' "What was worse for him than anyone else?" Sheba asked genuinely curious. As far as she could tell, everyone had lost a great deal in the Destruction. Most warriors, however, didn't take it as license to be rude. Maybe Apollo wasn't as strong as she had remembered? "Apollo's deepest losses were after the Destruction. When Caprica went we lost Mom and before that, Apollo was on patrol with Zac and they discovered the Cylon's ambush. Apollo had to leave Zac behind to warn the fleet, Zac's viper was hit, destroyed. He blames himself, even though he had no choice. Sometimes I think he blames himself for the entire Destruction. It was rough for him, but after we escaped the Colonial galaxy Apollo thought we lost Starbuck, his best friend and wingmate. You'll remember hearing about him - he's the friend of Apollo I had that crush on yahrens ago after Apollo brought him home. Anyway," Athena paused for oxygen and Sheba smiled at her friend's characteristic rush to get all the details out in one breath. "Anyway, Starbuck had been captured by Baltar, but he managed to survive and come back. In the meantime Apollo got married and we found Kobol. Apollo and his new bride went to Kobol and Cylons killed her. They were actually on their post-sealing trip. Now he has a young son, his wife's son, that he has to care for and grieve, all at the same time and like Father, he takes the weight of our little world on his shoulders. It kind of goes against his quick-tempered nature. I guess you could say it's been rather overwhelming for him. I try to cut him some slack. Besides, you two hardly ever got along smoothly. Now shouldn't be any exception...should it?" Athena asked with a sly grin. "I feel so bad, I hadn't realized. He needs to catch his breath. I can understand that," Sheba said quietly. Suddenly a smile appeared on her face and she looked at Athena questioningly. "One thing, Apollo a father? Wow! I mean on the one hand I can see that, he was always pretty studious and responsible. But he was practically just this young cadet when I last saw him sowing his wild oats. Who was his wife?" Sheba hoped her friend wouldn't suddenly remember her adolescent crush on Apollo. Since seeing him again, Sheba wasn't so sure it had ever really died, their pretending to be virtual strangers aside. "Serina, the Caprican news reporter," Athena smiled. "You're serious?! Didn't Apollo have a crush on her way back when? You used to tell me how you teased him mercilessly when he asked you to send him tapes of Caprican newscasts, for so-called research purposes. Wow! When did he finally meet her? Wasn't she way older than him?" "One question at a time! You're getting as bad as I am! Yes, he had a thing for her before they met. They met during the Destruction, actually. It was pretty quick, I guess and then she became a warrior and was killed on Kobol. She was a number of yahrens older than him. She had a son, Apollo adopted him, and his name is Boxey." "Kobol? It exists? You have a lot to tell me don't you," Sheba said closing her eyes tiredly. "Get some rest," Athena said quietly. "How about you, you must be tired," Sheba asked sleepily. "I've been sitting on the Bridge, I can't be that tired," Athena replied ironically. She actually didn't think she would get much sleep in the near future. Talking with her old friend had made her feel a bit better about things, at least for the moment. "The Bridge? Still fighting over who's going to be Commander? I thought you loved flying a viper? When did you decide to turn in your wings?" Sheba asked suddenly revived. "It wasn't really a choice I've made, it sort of just happened. When the Destruction happened I hadn't yet been assigned to regular squadron status. Since then we really haven't had time to change things," Athena explanation sounded lame even to herself. Now she really hoped her friend would fall asleep. "How can you be happy sitting there? Well, no offense, I know I couldn't do it. You always wanted to be a heroic Viper pilot like our dads before you became an illustrious commander of a battlestar! You were so jealous that Apollo got to do it first!" "I know. After all this I was going to request a transfer..." Athena sighed. "True commander material would do something about the situation as soon as possible," Sheba answered, closing her eyes again. "So you get some rest so you stand with me against my Father and Apollo. Real commander material takes advantage of the resources at hand and no one has better experience with stubborn men than you." Sheba smiled and drifted off to sleep. Athena sat and watched her friend for a while, deep in her thoughts. A half a centar later she was startled out of her reverie by the entrance of someone into the room. She glanced over and discovered Cassiopea watching them. Cassi entered and put her hand on Athena's shoulder. "How long?" "She's been asleep for a while. I haven't disturbed her. I thought you got off duty?" "I just wanted to make sure she was resting comfortably, I waited for you to finish first." "Thanks," Athena said, still uncomfortable with her respect for her rival for Starbuck's time and attentions. "Have you two gotten along?" Athena had heard about Cain's female companion from Sheba yahrens ago. She had suspected that Cassi was Cain's girlfriend when they first met since Sheba had always stressed, sneeringly, that Cain's "Cassi" was a Socialator, but her suspicions were never confirmed until recent events. 'At least I had to good sense not to blab that to Starbuck,' she thought to herself with heavy self-deprecation, remembering all the silly things she had done the past few sectars. "I guess we have," Cassi nodded. "That's good," Athena said, for her friend's sake, still uncomfortable with the woman with whom Starbuck had been dividing his time with. "As someone with Starbuck experience can I offer a bit of hard earned advice?" "Sure," Cassi answered with obvious hesitation. "Talk to Starbuck, soon. Don't let him simmer too long, his heart will turn away," Athena advised, steeped in her own experience. Before Cassi could answer Athena got up and walked away to find another Med Tech to tell her if Bojay was awake and up to seeing visitors. She was taking her own advice and not letting things stew. * * * * * * * * * * * Colonel Tigh and Commander Adama and the members of the Council of the Twelve were on the podium. The Council members, even Sire Uri, remained seated as Adama stepped forward to give his welcome speech to the newest members of the Fleet. Adama's words were broadcast throughout the fleet. "Once again my fellow Colonials, we have, by the grace of God and the Lord of Kobol, survived another onslaught by the Cylons and The Traitor Baltar. But in the midst of our joy and our welcome of our long lost friends and family member who remain from the Pegasus. We must now offer our thanks and our prayers to Commander Cain and his loyal and brave crew who have enabled our escape. We do not know for sure what has happened out there, but if there was any way to survive, Commander Cain and his crew will find that way." * * * * * * * * * * * * Athena was directed to Bojay's room. Being a "hero" like Sheba he too was assigned a private room. It wasn't large, but it did afford him and his visitors privacy. "Oh sorry, I can come back." Athena started to back out of the room as she discovered Boomer already in there. "No, no. Come on in Athena." Boomer walked over and put his arm around her and led her back into the room. "I am sure your beautiful face will do more to cheer up this small, dingy room than mine can." Athena laughed at Boomer's blatant flattery. Of all her brother's friends, he was always the nicest to her and had easily become one of her friends as well. "Don't let Doctor Salik hear you call his rooms dingy." Athena suddenly turned serious. "Bojay, I know we've never met formally, but I was hoping I could ask you some questions." Bojay interrupted her and clasped her hand tightly. "I've seen holopictures of you many times Athena. Orion talked about you a lot. It's funny, but I feel like I already know you. Boomer..." Bojay looked at his friend beseechingly. Boomer cleared his throat. "I know when I'm not wanted anymore. I'll see you later Bojay, Athena," he patted his friend on his arm and kissed Athena's cheek before showing himself out. Athena removed her hand from Bojay's and tried to find a spot in the room to concentrate on before Bojay said what he had to say. "Relax Athena, this isn't an Academy disciplinary hearing. Sit down, take a few deep breaths. Bojay looked at his blanket blankly for a moment. "I know this must be hard to anticipate. I imagine Apollo told you I had a message for you from Orion." At Athena's nod he continued. "It's not so much a message, none of us under Cain's command ever consider losing an option, but there are some things he said that I thought he would want you to know. Some things I would have liked to hear if I was in your position." 'Is he in my position? Is there someone on the Pegasus he's lost?' Athena wondered briefly before taking a deep breath and settling in to listen. "I am being a coward. I'm ready!" Athena visibly steeled herself. Cain wasn't the only Commander and father who extolled the virtue of bravery and good posture. Bojay struggled to sit up more and visibly winced when he moved his leg. "Don't, we can have this conversation when you're more up to it," Athena put a hand on Bojay's taut torso to stop his painful movements. "No, no, my body is fine, I just have to move this leg carefully. Help me sit up?" he asked quietly, ashamed of his weakness. Athena smiled to herself at the comforting display of warrior machismo. She helped him to sit up without a word, knowing that commenting would only embarrass him further. All of a sudden she realized that somehow she was comfortable with this virtual stranger. 'Warriors aren't all that different from each other when it comes to the basics,' she smiled to herself. Bojay noticed the content smile come over Athena's face and was astounded at her quick recovery. 'Orion was right,' he thought to himself, 'she's a resilient woman.' "I've heard about you for yahrens from Orion. He and I are what you would call best friends. He didn't talk about the past with many people, none of us did after Molecay, but he always told me about you. He showed me pictures and told me stories about your childhood on Caprica and at the Academy. He admired you a great deal, always. Sometimes he and Sheba would reminisce about the old days and your name would come up." Athena felt tears come to her eyes. She and Orion had known each other their whole lives. It was still unbelievable to her that she would have to live without him being in her life. It was something she had never fully gotten used to even after Molecay. She suddenly felt guilty for her doubts. She hastily wiped away the few who leaked, unwilling to show any more vulnerability in front of this strong warrior of Cain's than she already had. Bojay pretended not to notice Athena's renewed distress and continued. "Before I went on the tanker mission he pulled me aside and told me that he was angry he wasn't going along, but that he was glad to spend the time with you. That's pretty impressive Athena, you meant so much to him he didn't bother to fight tooth and nail and get himself on the team like he normally would have. He seemed to sense the Cain had something crazy up his sleeve. Heck, that's not hard to anticipate. He told me before we left for Gomoray that he was glad he saw you for however short a time you had together but he hoped you and he could pick up where you had left off and build a life together." Athena sighed brokenly, holding back her tears. She had known, but it was so comforting and yet painful to hear her hopes confirmed and dashed in the same breath. "Thank you, Bojay. Most people, most warriors, wouldn't have bothered to pass such sentiment along. Both you and Orion must have been close friends," she reached over and clasped his hand again. "It means a lot to me. Orion told me a little about the things you had been through together on the Pegasus, I know he cared a great deal for you and respected your abilities as a warrior. I'm glad you're here with us on the Galactica, if there is anything I can do for you never hesitate to ask." "Could you ask this Doctor Salik to put some better decoration in here?" Bojay smiled, closed his eyes and drifted into a content sleep. Athena watched the young warrior sleep and tried to figure out whether being around him would be comforting or exacerbating an open wound. She hoped he would find it comforting. * * * * * * * * * * * * Starbuck wandered aimlessly around the battlestar trying to avoid people and pointedly ignoring the broadcast of Adama's speech. He didn't want to hear anything about Cain, not after Cassi had deliberately ignored him a centar ago. Too keyed up to sleep, or even hustle a game of pyramid, he had taken to wandering the halls of the Galactica. During his aimless meandering he ran into Athena, who looked even less happy than he did. "Hey Starbuck." Athena stopped as she almost barreled into the handsome Lieutenant. Starbuck looked up and discovered that somehow he had wandered back to the Life Center. "Wow, you look as bad as I feel." Athena looked at him and raised her eyebrows, "still a silver- tongued devil? Excuse me," she tried to pass him. "Sorry. I didn't mean to insult you," Starbuck grabbed her arm. "Whatever," Athena answered automatically. She tried to remove Starbuck's hand from her arm and suddenly stopped. "Are you all right?" Athena was puzzled, concern for Athena's possibly hurt feelings was not normal for Starbuck since he had met the former Socialator. Well, since she had rejected his awkward proposal, she admitted ruefully. "Yeah," Starbuck smiled and glanced at his hands, seemingly surprised by his grasp on her arm and let go. "What are you doing right now?" Starbuck looked as surprised as Athena felt to hear that question come out of his mouth. "Nothing in particular, I was just going to pretend to sleep I guess," Athena shrugged. "Are you going to listen to the speeches? I think each council member wants to get in some campaigning," Starbuck asked. "I don't think I can stomach any tributes to Cain right now." "I can relate to that," Athena laughed humorlessly. Starbuck put his arm out and motioned toward the lift. Athena hesitated. "Are you trying to ask me for advice? Well, my advice is that you should talk to Cassi. Don't let things fester," Athena was bemused at her second delivery of that bit of advice. It had been so long since she and Starbuck had related as people rather than as antagonists. It was sort of a heady feeling to be so selfless with this man for a change. Starbuck looked at his ex-girlfriend suspiciously and put his arm down. "Yeah, I guess I was sort of asking advice?" Starbuck suddenly realized that Athena was probably the only person he could talk to just then about Cassi's feelings for Cain. For one thing, Cassi's actions wouldn't reflect on Cassi badly since Athena already didn't like her. For another, Athena had always shot straight with him before they had so foolishly gotten involved romantically. And right now, she probably understood how he felt. "It's been a while since we've been real friends, but I do care about you Starbuck. And we are practically family. As much as it astounds me to admit, I hate to see you hurting," Athena explained with a kind smile. "I know Athena, after all these yahrens, I do know." Starbuck began to notice the curious stares the pair were attracting. "Listen, Apollo tried to encourage me to talk earlier, but with him these days it's kind of..." "Frustrating, I know, he's been hard to talk to since he lost Serina. It's not that he doesn't care, but after a certain point you lose him, he shuts down," Athena sighed. "Well, if it isn't too weird for you, we did used to be good friends. The Lords know I could use a shoulder right now. No ulterior motives, I promise," Athena raised her hand over her heart in the time honored symbol of Warrior fidelity. "You still have to promise on pain of death not to tell anyone," Starbuck said threateningly, "you'd ruin my reputation!" they finished in unison and then both laughed. "Aw, Starbuck, if I ever told all the deep, mushy stuff you've told me over the yahrens no one would believe me!" Athena squeezed his arm. "Maybe a woman's perspective would be helpful here, but I think we had better find somewhere private, we're attracting some attention." Athena had also noticed the curious stares, people were probably waiting for them to come to blows - or make out. "How about my room? Rigel is still on duty." "Okay," Starbuck nodded. "I need to change, meet me there in fifteen centons," Athena headed towards a lift, a little startled that she and Starbuck had just agreed to spend time alone together, as friends. She hoped they didn't kill each other. Considering her intermittent rage against Orion and Cain, as well as Athena and Starbuck's own unique history, it was a distinct possibility. * * * * * * * * * * * A few centons later Starbuck was sprawled out on a cushiony chair in Athena and Rigel's quarters when Athena entered wearing sweats, having first gone to the Officer's Club to get some snacks for them. Rigel was spending the cycle at the on-call quarters by the Bridge. Athena suspected some extra-special loyalty to Omega at work there. "Are you sure about this Starbuck? I have to admit I'm not really in an entertaining mood." "Good because I'm not in a charming mood either. Well, we've both seen each other worse off. Maybe we could actually cheer each other up, or depress each other more, whatever." "True. You used to be good at cheering me up, of course I usually only needed cheering up after you dumped your bad mood on me, but that's just space debris," she waved her hand illustratively. "Only because I thought you were such a cute kid," Starbuck smiled at her. "Oh please, spare me!" Athena smiled despite her words of protest. "See, made you smile! Besides, I only used to dump on you because Apollo threatened to pummel me if I flirted with his baby sister. It was a cover. You should have seen how ticked off he was when I told him what a beautiful woman you were going to be when you grew up, more than I normally ticked him off, by the way. You were only kid, but he was afraid I'd sweep you off your feet back then. But not as angry as he was when I told him I wanted to date you after you came to the Galactica. That was a sight to see," Starbuck smiled to himself. "I never knew you said all that! I had such a big crush on you, of course I made that more than obvious. Imagine if I had known you thought I was cute!" Athena suddenly stopped smiling and looked at the floor. "He's gone, with Cain," Athena changed the course of the conversation. Starbuck got up and knelt before Athena and brushed some tears off her face and leaned in close. "Don't tell anyone I'm handling a woman's tears with aplomb, we wouldn't want to ruin my image." Starbuck was obviously trying to make her smile again. "I don't think either of us are going to gossip about any of this, Starbuck." Athena suddenly pulled away from Starbuck, brushed off her sadness and pulled a bottle of Colonial Kaluha from the cabinet next to the couch. "Enough of this, let's toast another close escape for the Fleet and to the hero sitting here in my very own quarters." Starbuck's brows raised at the loot she waved in front of him. "Where'd you get that? I know, you won't tell, never mind. I could use some of that. You're not afraid I'm going to take advantage of you if you drink too much?" Athena just smiled at Starbuck's quip, appreciating his attempt at normalcy, but ignoring the obviously inapplicable concern. "Here," Starbuck stood up and took the bottle and cups from Athena. "You sit, I'll pour, it's a man's job." Athena just rolled her eyes, ignoring the bait, and sat back down on the cushy couch. "I'm not sure if this all happened. I think I've been dreaming, but I don't think I really enjoyed it." Athena stretched her legs out in front of her. "It happened all right. That or we've both had the same nightmare." Starbuck responded handing Athena a full cup of Kaluha. He motioned to the space next to her with his cup and she just nodded. He sat down and faced her. "Do you want to talk about Orion?" Starbuck asked and took a long pull on his drink. "I never realized this stuff tasted so good!" They were both silent for a while, lost in their own thoughts. "I don't really have anything to say. I'm furious at him for leaving me again, I know I shouldn't be, but there it is. I also know once I get over being angry, I'll probably miss him so much, then I'll start to heal. Again. I just hope it doesn't take as long this time. I probably should just be grateful I got so see him one more time." "Do you feel like you're back where you were before? I remember before, Apollo told me about things when Orion first, uh, disappeared. You came to the Galactica over a yahren later and I could tell you were still smarting from that loss. I can't imagine having to go through all that twice. Unless you can think you can skip over all that this time?" Athena just stared at Starbuck trying to figure out whether he was joking or not. "The scary thing is that I had the same thought," Athena shook her head. "I'm just too confused right now. This all happened so fast. Maybe I can chalk it up to a dream or a gift, a chance to say and do all the things we missed before and not a new loss. I just don't know yet," Athena said into her glass before taking another sip. "So did you, uh, enjoy your time together this time?" Starbuck cleared his throat and asked with a grin. 'Why did I just ask that?' Starbuck mentally kicked himself. Athena blushed and turned away. "Let's just say I have no regrets. Would you like to talk about Cassi now?" Athena asked changing the subject away from her love life. Starbuck laughed. "I should probably be jealous, but I'll change the subject!" Starbuck put his hands up as if surrendering and almost spilled his drink. "Cassiopea. Cassiopea. The love of Commander Cain's life. The girlfriend of a Legend, who may or may not be living anymore. She had feelings for him and she obviously still does. So where does that leave Starbuck? Old 'love 'em and leave 'em' Starbuck. She never even told me about him. I guess we don't have the kind of relationship, the kind where we talk about serious things like the past. It's never been like it was between us. We give each other space. I can't help but wonder what else don't I know. I don't even know if it even matters." "She obviously has feelings for you too. I know she still wants you." "Because he's not here? I don't know if that's enough," Starbuck shook his head. Athena nodded understandingly. "It's not ego. I don't, well maybe it is. She doesn't have to love me, but she can't be in love with somebody else. What would that make me?" Starbuck asked. "A booby prize? Second choice?" Athena asked looking away. "Exactly. How did you..." Starbuck began until Athena cut him off. "Like I felt when Aurora was killed and you were suddenly ready to commit to me," she pointed out quietly. "And you weren't still in love with Orion? You wouldn't sleep with me because of his memory!" Starbuck became defensive. They had never touched on this subject before. "That had nothing to do with it!" Athena protested. "He's back for one day and yahrens of chastity down the drain," Starbuck shot back. Athena stood up and started pacing. "You know very well that you're wrong! So I've changed the value I place on certain things. That tends to happen when your entire world is destroyed and most everyone you love dies, or leaves you! My chastity is not the issue and you know it! You and I hadn't reached that level of commitment yet, at least not that we were admitting until it was too late," she pointed out. Starbuck opened his mouth to respond but couldn't find anything to say. She was right. He had never admitted to anyone but her brother Zac how much he had cared for her. She in turn had played according to his lead, obviously afraid to scare him away. Now, he was sure he was right to do that, convinced that she had never gotten over Orion. Aurora's role, well, that was something he would have to think about later. "I'm sorry I started this. It doesn't matter now," Athena stopped pacing. "It doesn't matter anymore. Can we just be friends again? Can we just forget the past?" "Come sit back down. Maybe it was time we got all that out," Starbuck grinned. Athena sat back down next to Starbuck and smiled, knowing what he was thinking at that moment. "Friends. The best thing is for you to ask Cassi what she wants, how she feels. Then you two have to figure out where to go from there. What if she is still in love with Cain? Are her feelings for you now going to be enough? Are you planning on giving any more than right now? You can't ask her for more than you're willing to give?" "I don't think so? I don't know. I'll think about it. Let's take our mind off this...this...stuff," Starbuck raised his eyebrows questioningly. "I'll change the subject, I just want to say one more thing?" At Starbuck's reluctant nod, Athena continued. "She may have hurt you, don't just throw it all away because of one mistake, this time. New subject how about this one? I'm going to request a transfer off the Bridge to a squadron," Athena announced. "I hope you don't mind my mentioning it, but I remember you yelling about certain persons who couldn't wait to get out there and get shot up..." Starbuck cleared his throat, alluding to Athena's rejection of his fumbled marriage proposal. "Space debris Starbuck, space debris," Athena reminded Starbuck that they had agreed to put their past in the past and change the subject. "After Zac was killed I couldn't bring myself to push the issue with my Father. I know how hard it will be for him to have both of his 'remaining' children out there, but I just can't let it go by anymore. I promised Orion and Sheba I wouldn't. I just have to figure out how to tell him without hurting him. Simply saying that I want to blast Cylons or that I'm going to become a raving lunatic if I continue to be condemned to Bridge duty probably won't help." "Why not? It's the truth. I think that would more effective with your Father than some felgercarb explanation." "You may be right, you've always managed to wrap my Father around your finger against his better judgment. He does appreciate straightforwardness. I just want to make sure I cover all the corners of the pyramid before he plays the guilt card. Or Apollo does." Starbuck laughed at Athena's gambling metaphor. Apollo and Adama never knew it, but Athena had been his silent partner in some of his more complicated pranks, and she was a whiz at gambling. He missed her carefree days, maybe getting her off the Bridge would lighten her up again? He'd help achieve that goal. "So who are you going approach first Apollo or the Commander? Or are you going to hit both at the same time? I think Adama might be more reasonable than Apollo, especially after Serina..." Starbuck trailed off. Athena got up and poured herself another cup. She gestured the bottle at Starbuck and topped him off at his nod. "Apollo was pig headed with Serina before anything happened, he's not likely to give in again. He really imagines it's his fault we lost Serina and Zac." "The Commander would be a better place to start. Despite his feelings, he's less likely to let them get in the way of a rational military decision," Starbuck agreed with his own conclusion. "If my best shot is with Father, it's going to be an uphill battle. Maybe I should get Tigh on my side too?" "Adama might not be happy to know you spoke to Tigh first," Starbuck pointed out, starting to slur his words. "True, I'll get a maybe out of Adama first, then I'll talk to Tigh and get the wheels in motion. Maybe I'll try Apollo..." Athena rambled, obviously becoming a bit inebriated herself. "No, then Apollo will be insulted I talked to Tigh first. Why do I suddenly feel like I'm plotting against my family." "It can't be helped. You have to go with what you know and can accomplish," Starbuck pointed out. "My Mother used to try and teach us not to be that way, of course she didn't live on a battlestar." Starbuck poured them another cup of Kaluha and then put his head in Athena's lap, feeling a bit drowsy. She rested her cup on his head and continued to devise her strategy out loud, Starbuck breaking in occasionally to give his input. "No, no, if I don't mention Zac at all, Dad and Apollo will save it for their side. I have to bring him up immediately and neutralize that argument, that what Rhys would say. And she was one of the best law minds on the Colonies and the best in the Fleet. Maybe I'll call her for some tactical advice," Athena disagreed with Starbuck's suggestion. "Oh, my mind isn't good enough? Well, I definitely think you need to bring Serina up to Adama. Apollo will and you can make him look overemotional. Ha, Apollo overemotional, I like that!" Starbuck amused himself. Athena poured them out the rest of the bottle. "I can't believe I feel so good, this stuff is amazing; I must be really tired or something, only half a bottle and I feel this way..." Starbuck observed before drinking his last cup in one gulp. "I can see why you women love this stuff. Is the Fleet Chocola this good?" "Better even! Want to try some?" "You have some? Where is all this contraband coming from?" Starbuck really wanted to know, Cassi really loved chocola. Starbuck shook his head, he wasn't going to think about Cassi. "Rigel and I always have a stash in here," Athena grabbed Starbuck's head as she leaned to the side of the sofa and pulled some chocola out of a nearby drawer. "Here," she broke a piece off and put it in Starbuck's mouth. "Mmmmm," Starbuck moaned his enjoyment. Athena giggled. "I haven't made you do that in a long time!" Athena then popped a piece in her mouth, closed her eyes and let it melt on her tongue. "I have to concur with your assessment Starbuck. I owe Clai big for this batch!" "The secret source revealed! More!" Starbuck demanded like a greedy child. When Athena popped another piece in his mouth he took her hand and started to suck some melted chocola off her fingers. All of a sudden, both of them realized what Starbuck was doing. "That stuff was so good..." Starbuck began. "I didn't mean anything...chocola does that..." Athena said at the same time. Suddenly they both sighed and then laughed. "Let's just not pretend that was something it wasn't." Athena said, closing her eyes again. "Sure," Starbuck said looking confused, but Athena didn't see his expression as her eyes were closed. Starbuck switched positions and lay back to watch Athena as she fell asleep. Once he judged her to be asleep he took the chocola out of her hand and stole a piece before putting it back in the drawer. He then put her legs up on the couch and spread a cover over her. He hesitated a moment as he leaned over her face as if he was about to kiss her cheek. Indeed he lightly brushed he lips against her cheek before turning and walking towards the door. He was about to leave when he stopped at the doorway. Resting his head on his hand and straddling the doorway he looked back at her once more before he left. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ CHAPTER 6 - The Path The first thing Athena noticed when she woke up was how uncomfortable she was, the second that the past few cycles really weren't a dream. Orion had come and gone and Starbuck had covered her sleeping form before he left. 'Just when I thought life couldn't get any odder,' she thought to herself as she forced her cramped body off the sofa. She grimaced and picked up the empty bottle of spirits for proper recycling and headed to get ready for her primary school teaching duty. Then she had to talk to her Father. * * * * * * * * * * * After school Athena dropped Boxey and some of his friends off in the Rec Room for supervised play and headed for her Father's office. She had to talk to him before she went on duty or she would never forgive herself. She was afraid that is she waited she would lose her resolve, just as she had for time and again the past few sectars. She reached his office and paused to take a deep breath. "It's now or never Lieutenant. Time to prove your leadership mettle, as Sheba would say!" Despite the fortifying breath and the words of self- encouragement, she still stood outside the door uncertain how to broach the subject. All cycle in school she had been distracted trying to think of the perfect opening statement. Nothing brilliant came to mind. "I should have contacted Rhys!" she berated herself for still being unsure how to preface her request. As Athena stood there appearing to be staring off into space people began to look at her curiously, a fact which Athena noticed when she heard her name mentioned in snatches of conversation. Listening closely know, her face flushed as she heard the words "Starbuck" and "last night" and her name bandied about. "More rumors!" she thought in a panic. Athena started to turn away from her Father's office to go find Starbuck to warn him then realized that she was just looking for an excuse to procrastinate her self-assigned task. 'Besides, Starbuck and Cassi need to handle their own relationship!' she shook her head and took a deep breath and marched through the doorway. "Good rehearsal," she thought to herself a she entered the outer room of Adama's offices. "Hi Kalen, is he busy?" she asked the young man seated just inside the door. "Well, not too busy for a visit from his daughter I'm sure," her Father's secretary smiled at her. "Let me tell him you're here." After a few microns Kalen turned back to Athena and nodded. "Go right in, Athena, and might I say how lovely you are looking today?" he asked with a wink. "Of course you can!" Athena winked back and headed into the lion's den. * * * * * * * * * Adama was sitting at his desk typing on his terminal, he looked up when his daughter entered, a bright smile showing his joy at her unexpected visit. It only made her feel guilty because she knew that smile was going to disappear in a few centons. "I'll be finished here in a micron," Adama informed her, turning back to his task. Athena looked at the chair in front of the desk, but declined to sit down. Restless, she went to the starview and looked out. Adama, meanwhile, finished entering his report into the computer, another endless report to the council. Adama pressed "enter" and looked up. He frowned when he noticed that Athena hadn't sat down and appeared nervous. He wondered what bombshell he was in for this time, the last time she looked that nervous to talk to him was when she informed him of her relationship with her brother's best friend. He had a feeling it wouldn't be as comical this time. He stood and walked to stand behind his daughter. "Do I need to sit back down for this?" Adama asked, obviously startling her. Athena turned around and assumed military posture. That's when Adama knew that it was serious. "Obviously this is more than just a social visit, you haven't decided to join the Otori sect have you?" "Is that what you think of me? That I'm so, so...unreliable and thoughtless?" Athena asked in an obviously stricken whisper. "No, no, I'm sorry dear, it was my obviously feeble attempt to lighten the atmosphere, it's just that last time I saw that face you informed that you were dating Starbuck. I was just going to the opposite extreme, forget it. Of course, I don't think your unreliable, though you do usually appreciate my attempts at humor a little more," Adama assured his daughter, placing his hand on her arm. Athena sighed to herself. "I'm sorry, I guess I'm a bit nervous right now. This is serious. I am here as both a subordinate and your daughter," Athena paused, obviously searching for the right words. "I wanted to inform you that I will be submitting a formal request for transfer off the Bridge to a squadron. As your daughter, I ask that you understand and give your blessing," Athena chose the direct approach. Adama was stunned. "I knew that you wanted more flying time, but I thought being on the reserve squadron would solve that. We need you on the Bridge. Your tactical analysis are almost flawless and Tigh would be lost without you." "You've said that before, but I don't think that is true. Just a cycle ago, just when we are in the midst of a critical mission my presence on the Bridge wasn't required," Athena pointed out calmly, referring to her off time with Orion during the Tanker mission. "Is that what this is about? Because Tigh granted you leave to be Orion before battle? You should be grateful, not insulted." Athena shook her head. "I'm not insulted, I know that I asked for the time off and I was glad to have it. That doesn't change the fact that I was expendable. You've told me before that my presence on the Bridge is vital, but do you say that as Commander of this battlestar or as my Father?" Athena asked quietly. "You underestimate your value Athena. And you underestimate my professionalism. You were a part of making tactical plans for the Gomoray mission and you were required to return before our air strike. As both your Commander and your Father I can assure you that I would not have anyone less than capable on the Bridge - daughter or not," Adama said stiffly. "I don't mean to insult your command abilities. The truth, however, is that I am not irreplaceable on the Bridge while we have a shortage of trained pilots, which is why we have created a Reserve Squadron made up of warriors who didn't train to be viper pilots in Academy and newly minted pilots. I trained to be a viper pilot, I have experience and I have the instincts. On the Bridge I can be replaced by a civilian technician," Athena kept her voice carefully modulated. "That's not true. It's your knowledge of military tactics and weaponry, as well as your technical training that make you valuable. Your instincts serve you well on the bridge, they serve us well. You have a good future before you in Bridge service." "But I'm not happy there. It's not the future I want. It's not a future I can even begin to contemplate. It never was." Adama's shoulders visibly fell at his daughter's simple statements. He remembered each and every time his son went out on a mission and he looked at his daughter, thankful she was there on the bridge with him. He knew that her arguments were valid. More importantly, he knew that the time would come when Athena would no longer be content to remain by his side because she was a warrior like her father and brothers. "I won't stop you if this is what you really feel you must do. Believe it or not I still feel the hot blooded urge to face the enemy from the cockpit of a viper. It was hard for me, even for the sake of advancement to give that up. How can I deny my daughter the fulfillment of all I've taught her? I should be proud, I am proud." Adama closed the space between them and placed his hands around her face. "I'll miss you by my side." Tears filled Athena's eyes. "I know how hard this is for you, to have both of us out there. I want you to know that I did not make this decision lightly. I've stood with you and watched the Cylons destroy our worlds, my brother being killed and I stand with you and worry about Apollo, but I can't just stand there anymore and do what feels to me like nothing important." "Thank you for that Athena. I know that you did not make this decision selfishly. I know how much you've hated being on the bridge, I just hoped you would come to like it and it would be enough. But you are my daughter, your mother's daughter and you are too strong willed and hot blooded to settle." Athena could see the sadness in her father's eyes. At the same time she saw his pride. "Thank you Commander." "I said I won't stand in the way of your request, but don't expect me to pull strings and come up with a plumb assignment. We may be short on qualified pilots, but we're also short on vipers and until our new construction is underway you may have to wait for a spot," Adama held his daughter in his arms. "A spot for what?" Apollo asked walking into the room. "Kalen said Athena was here. Have I interrupted something?" Apollo asked. "Your sister was just informing me of her intent to request a transfer off the Bridge to a squadron," Adama spared Athena the need to inform her brother. Seeing the stubborn expression on her brother's face, Athena put her hand up. "Forget it Apollo. It's not open for discussion." "As flight commander of one of the squadrons on this ship and your superior office I beg to differ," Apollo said hotly. "Oh gee, at least you didn't try and pull big brother rank," Athena rolled her eyes. Apollo had no say in whether Athena got a transfer, he could only prevent her from being assigned to the Blue Squadron. He could also ask the other Squadron leaders to make her life miserable. "Father, you're not going to allow this," Apollo stated. "Yes I am," Adama answered. "Your sister is a warrior and she has just as much a right to do her job as you do. Don't try to pull rank with me," Adama gently reminded his son of his place. Apollo was rendered speechless. His father had effectively thwarted his arguments. "Athena, may I speak to you alone?" Apollo thought that alone he could talk his sister out of this and preserve the status quo. Athena was about to refuse when she decided to spare their father from having to listen to them argue, and she knew from Apollo's look it wasn't going to be anything but an argument. She nodded and Adama said he had to go and confer with Tigh and left them alone. "How could you ask this of him?" Apollo demanded as soon as the door closed behind Adama. "How could I? Why is this all on my shoulders? He told you himself that I have just as much of a right to be a pilot as you!" "I was already a pilot before you even started the Academy," Apollo's argument sounded foolish to his own ears. "So seniority determines who gets to worry Dad? You never tried to discourage me from training to be a pilot when I was at Academy or when I came to the Galactica. Why do I have to be the martyr now?" "Things were different before," Apollo said stubbornly. "What was different before Apollo?" Athena fired at him, biting her tongue from telling him what she knew he was thinking. "You know what's different," Apollo evaded the question, hoping guilt would make the argument for him. He'd had almost the very same argument with Serina when she sneaked off to train as a warrior and he lost then. Problem was he still didn't know how he could win, and if he lost he knew how high the cost would be. He was willing to use whatever weapon he could to keep his sister safe, and not have to feel doubly guilty about worrying their father. Athena turned away and began pacing. She suddenly whipped around to face her brother, her eyes shooting flames. "You are not going to use guilt against me anymore. I'll tell you what's different. You, you're different! You never used to take responsibility for everyone else's choices. Zac chose to become a warrior, just as Serina did. They both knew the risks. I chose to become a warrior and I knew the risks when I made that decision. And if I wasn't cognizant of them before I sure as Hades am now. I listened to Zac being killed, I watched our being world destroyed and our mother being killed. I lost the man I love long before graduation and I could have backed out of my commitment then and I chose not to. I watched him being killed again just a couple of cycles ago! I lived through the capture of Starbuck. I've listened and seen countless friends killed in the past few sectars. I once accused Starbuck for loving the thrill of the fight and I pushed him away. The truth is that I hated myself for loving that same thrill because I saw how Zac's loss devastated our Father, and you. So don't try and make me think that I'm wrong to feel the same way you do. Don't treat me like I'm too stupid, careless and selfish to assess those risks for myself. You don't have the right to make that decision for me or to expect me to sacrifice myself to save your own feelings. So I can sit on the Bridge as a comfort for Father and you can take every one-way mission and not have to feel guilty about him worrying about you?" Athena's voice broke and she turned away. She thought she would feel relieved at finally having said everything she had been thinking since Serina had been killed and Apollo had turned in on himself. Instead she felt deflated and guilty and she wasn't sure that her beloved brother wouldn't just hate her now. Athena braced herself for Apollo's outburst. "Athena, you haven't flown a viper in sectars," Apollo responded in a flat voice as if she hadn't just said anything. Athena turned around and just stared at her brother, stunned and not trusting herself to respond rationally. Under Athena's scrutiny, Apollo shifted uncomfortably and sigh. "Yeah, I heard you Athena. You're right, you're both right. This is your decision and I have no right to stand in your way. Maybe I have wanted you on the Bridge so Father wouldn't worry so much about both of us. It's not fair, I wouldn't give up flying a viper and you shouldn't be denied that chance," Apollo said quietly, saying the words but not really internalizing their meaning. "I'm not trying to hurt Dad, or you. It's just that...I don't need to explain this to you," Athena knew that her brother felt the same sense of responsibility to defend their people and got the same thrill from flying that she did. Athena walked over and hugged her brother. "I just wish he would address those other issues I pointed out," Athena thought to herself noticing that Apollo didn't respond to her comments about taking responsibility for Zac and Serina or his taking on the most dangerous missions himself. Athena wished she could make him own up to his suicidal tendencies, but knew that her brother couldn't be forced to deal with his feelings. She just hoped he didn't manage to kill himself before he rediscovered a purpose to his life. Just as Apollo released his sister Adama came walking back in. "Ah good, that's over with. Apollo, did you have something you needed to talk to me about?" Adama hoped not, he was still reeling from his daughter's revelations. He and Ila had tried to invoke a rule allowing only one crisis from one child per sectar, unfortunately it had never worked. "No, it was a purely social call. I wanted to see if you could have dinner with Boxey and me, and Athena when I found her. "I'd love to, but your Sister still has Bridge duty," Adama said meaningfully, reminding Athena that she had mere centons to get there. Athena grimaced. She didn't say so out loud, but she really hoped a spot could be found for her soon. "I do have to go now, I need to talk to Tigh before I report in. Omega will have to find someone to replace me as well. Thank you Commander, Captain," Athena smiled at her family before she left. Adama watched her leave with a resigned expression on his face. He turned and caught his son watching him. "Don't get me wrong Apollo, I'm not happy about her decision, but I can't stand in her way. I can't allow my personal feelings to interfere with how the ship is run and you must learn to do the same." "When do I allow my personal feelings..." Apollo broke off at his Father's raised eyebrows. "Maybe the team on our next dangerous mission can be comprised of someone besides you and Starbuck? Your fellow warriors, not to mention the Council are starting to grumble about favoritism," Adama said, trying to diplomatically address his and his daughter's concern that Apollo took on too much himself. "You and Starbuck are among the best warriors I have, but we do have some other talented people who deserve the opportunity to serve the Fleet and earn some medals." Apollo nodded but didn't comment. Delegation wasn't his strong point, he never expected his men to do something that he wouldn't do himself. Starbuck, as often as he somehow "found" himself on the same missions, also grumbled that Apollo just didn't trust anybody else to do the job. Apollo disagreed with the observation. "I'm going to go pick up Boxey and meet you at your quarters?" At Adama's nod Apollo rushed out of the room. Adama walked over to the starview and sighed heavily. Raising the children without Ila was hard work. He wondered how she had handled it mostly alone all those yahrens. "Ila, I miss you my love," he said tenderly to the stars. * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * "Athena wait up!" Apollo called out, catching up with his sister in the corridor. Athena stopped. "I'm sorry about before," Apollo said as he caught up. "I know Apollo," Athena put her hand on his arm. "Have you thought about which Squadron you want?" "You mean do I want Blue, with you, Boomer and Starbuck?" Athena shrugged. "I haven't thought that far ahead. Starbuck and I have made our peace. We would probably work together well, now." "Made peace? I know I'm forbidden to ask, but I've heard some things..." Apollo trailed off meaningfully. "In other words, despite all my efforts I've once again managed to be fodder for gossip. You heard that I spent last night with Starbuck," she whispered. "You spent last night with Starbuck?" Apollo asked incredulously, standing up from his position against the wall. "No. Yes. No!" Athena motioned for her brother to lower her voice. "What did you hear?" "I'm not getting involved, you made me swear not to get involved..." Apollo chanted to himself. "What did you hear?" "That Starbuck broke up with Cassi in the Life Center and that you were waiting outside to comfort him. I didn't believe it, but figured you were probably at least on the same side of the ship as him. So what's going on? I'll stay out of it, but at least let me worry about my little sister?" "Nothing is going on Apollo. Starbuck and I both needed a shoulder last night. We were good friends before all the other stuff." "I do remember those days. I just hope Cassi hasn't heard about this before Starbuck has a chance to talk to her. I'd hate to see something else coming between them now. He does care about her a great deal," Apollo warned. "I don't think she's foolish enough to believe gossip. Nothing did happen Apollo," Athena responded to her brother's not-so-subtle message. "I'm off to the Bridge, for now," Athena reminded him sternly before her face turned serious, "Apollo, I am sorry I was kind of harsh in there." "Well, maybe I deserve some of it. What else is a little sister for but to remind her big brother when he's being, what did you imply, a hypocrite?" Apollo smiled, "I'm trying Athena, I'm trying." "I know Captain, thanks," Athena hugged her brother. "I'm going to be late! Bye!" Athena ran off down the corridor. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Chapter 7 - Choices & Turning Points Cassi had been on continuous duty for more centars than she could keep track of when she finally left the Life Center. There had been wounded from the two battlestars to treat, some were friends, some strangers and even a potential stepdaughter. As soon as she was out that door, however, Cassi's mind left her duties and zeroed in on thoughts she had deliberately pushed out of her mind, Starbuck and Cain. Cassi knew that she had to speak to Starbuck, and soon, but she also knew she was too exhausted to think straight right then. She had managed some sleep the night before, but it hadn't come close to being enough. It hadn't helped throughout the cycle that she heard people "whispering" about Starbuck and Athena being seen together last night. As she headed to her quarters to get some more sleep she failed to notice Starbuck coming towards her. "Cass?" Starbuck said quietly. Cassiopeia looked up and saw the questioning look in his eyes. "Starbuck, I..." she began. She noticed that he had dark circles under his eyes. "Have you had any sleep since Gomoray? You look terrible." "I haven't been able to sleep, too keyed up after a mission I guess," Starbuck shrugged, unwilling to reveal himself too deeply attached when he was unsure of reciprocity. "You look exhausted yourself. Can I walk you to your room?" At her questioning gaze he added, "no strings." "You always make the worst deals, but thanks," Cassi attempted a reassuring smile. Starbuck didn't smile back. As they walked down the corridor, Starbuck opened his mouth no less than three times to speak, before changing his mind. He couldn't think of anything to say. Cassi suddenly stopped walking and put her hand on Starbuck's forearm. Starbuck stopped and looked at her, a blank expression on his face. "Listen, Starbuck, what Cain and I had was important to me, I won't lie about that. I won't lie and say that I don't care about him anymore and that I'm not sad he's gone, anymore than you're not sad about Aurora or anyone else from your past. But we're both here now, alive and well. I care about you a great deal, we care about each other. We have fun and I think we can be good friends, too. I'm sorry I ran out on you without a word, but let's not throw away everything we mean to each other because of a bunch of 'what ifs.'" Starbuck was shocked by Cassi's speech, he still wasn't used to how practical she was about affairs of the heart. Sometimes it was a relief, but sometimes it was disappointing. He wasn't sure how he felt about it now, but after the way he screwed it up with Athena he wasn't about to give up so soon. "That's what I like about you Cassi, even in the midst of chaos you're so calm and rational," he tried to put a positive spin on things. Everything she said was true he thought, as he tried to ignore the pain in the left side of his chest. He really wanted her words to be true, to be enough. Cassi laughed. "I don't know how calm I've been, but I do try to avoid overanalyzing things." "I appreciate that. I really do, it's so...easy. Let's get you some sleep. Let's get both of us some sleep," Starbuck put his arm around her shoulders and they started walking again towards her quarters. "Are there strings attached to this 'walk' Warrior?" Cassi murmured. "I don't make a bad deal three time Med Tech. Of course there are strings attached." "Good!" Cassi's smile turned to a grin. The pair continued down the corridor oblivious to the stares and whispers they left in their wake. * * * * * * * * * * Despite the cycles Athena had spent working, there was a lightness to her step that defied her tiredness. She was on her way talk to Colonel Tigh before she submitted her formal transfer request. She wasn't sure whether Tigh had been warned by her Father, but she didn't expect any serious opposition from the Colonel. As his Aide he had final approval of the change and he might not want to waste time breaking someone new in, but as someone who had known her her whole life and was practically family she knew he would understand and support her decision. She had arranged to meet to Colonel off the Bridge in the War Room. She entered the room and saw Tigh alone waiting for her. "Well, Lieutenant, I have a feeling I know what this is about." "My father?" Athena asked. "Athena, I have known you since before you were born. I recognize that sparkle in your eyes. I haven't seen you so excited since your first patrol and it wasn't so long ago and I'm not so old that I don't remember it. Am I correct to assume you are finally requesting a transfer off the Bridge?" "Yes, Sir." Tigh laughed. "We may be in the War Room, but I think that such formality is not necessary from my soon-to-be former aide, and the little girl I taught to swim in the Caprican Sea." "Yes, Uncle Tigh!" Athena said with affection. "I won't try and talk you out of this, I'm sure that your father and brother have taken on those duties, but I will say that I will miss you at my side. Adama's daughter or not, you're the best tactician I've had at my side in a long time. So I have to ask, are you sure this is what you want? This isn't a decision made in haste of Orion's hasty appearance and just as fast disappearance?" "Yes I am. You and Father have had your time out there and I know you both fought taking bridge duty for as long as you could. Orion's appearance only solidified my decision, he reminded me I can't put off going after what I want," Athena stated earnestly. "That's true. We did not give up flying without much regret. The thrill of battle is a double-edged sword, though. There is no excitement without the danger, and you can never take routine patrols for granted, nothing in that cockpit is routine. I know, I know, you've heard this since your were in nappies, but you can never hear it enough times because until it happens, until you start to get bored by patrols, do you really understand. So, what Squadron should we assign you to? We will be reconstituting the Silver Spar here, in honor of Cain. Maybe you'd like to fly with Sheba?" "Blue Squadron. Zac flew Blue, Father and you flew Blue. Orion flew Blue Eagle on the Pegasus," Athena stated firmly. "You won't mind Apollo being your commander? I think it's only fair he has some say in this as well," Tigh raised his eyebrows in an unspoken question. "Apollo has bossed me around since birth and he hasn't tried to stop yet, but yes, he should have some say. Both he and Father probably would be comforted to have me under his watchful eye. For the record, flying with Starbuck's team won't be a problem," Athena answered the silent question. "He might, but I thought you might want to fly with Sheba," Tigh ignored the reference to Starbuck, he too had heard the rumors. "She flies with Bojay. I don't think she'd want to be separated from him here." "You're right about that, see you are very good at tactical." Athena smiled. "I will miss serving with you Tigh. You taught me a lot." Tigh put hand on her shoulder and looked her in the eye. "Then don't embarrass me out there young lady, precision flying is the motto around here." "No pressure, right? Just generations to live up to!" Athena exclaimed. "You're up to the challenge Athena. Even the Starbuck challenge?" "I won't shoot him, I promise, unless he really asks for it. No one would believe me if I told them I stood here talking to Colonel Tigh about my love life!" "And you won't tell them either Warrior!" Tigh commanded with mock severity. "You and Starbuck with that reputation thing, if he knew..." Athena broke off at Tigh's glare. "But he won't hear from me, that you two have so much in common, I guard both of your secrets." "I have to go back to the Bridge young lady, consider your transfer officially submitted, my staff will clear the paperwork. You know it may be some sectars before you re-qualify for full squadron duty and we find a viper for you to take over full time." "Yes, Sir! Thank you Uncle Tigh," Athena leaned over and gave the usually stoic warrior a kiss on the cheek, waved and was out the door. * * * * * * * * * * * * A few centons after Athena left Adama came walking in. "Well?" "Well what old friend. There was no sudden capitulation. I wished her well and told her I would facilitate her request. You know, I haven't seen her this excited in a long time." Both men sat down in the War Room seats. Adama nodded. "I know, I just wished that she could get as excited about Bridge duty, or teaching. Anything but being out there in battle," Adama admitted. "A chip off the old block. They always were. Ila wanted someone to stay at home, you want one of the kids to stay on the bridge - they all took after you to spite yourself." "Yeah, I know I should have considered boarding school!" Tigh laughed, knowing his friend was joking, and he would never have parted with his children more than he had to. "Boarding school, yeah, then you would have a bunch of Council boobs for children." "I happen to be a member of that same Council. Let's not speak with disrespect about who the people have chosen to represent them," Adama said, diplomatic as ever. "Then let me just say one more thing - slim pickings," Tigh stated with a straight face that even Starbuck would envy during a game of Pyramid. "At least having Rhys and her committee to torture has kept them out of our hair these days." "But the new justice system has somehow turned into an election issue. I don't envy Rhys, but it keeps their noses out of military strategy for a change," Adama remarked laconically. "We haven't sat in these seats in many a yahren old friend. It gives you an interesting perspective doesn't it," Tigh looked around the room towards where he and Adama stood giving briefings. "Remember when we sat here, barely able to sit still, eager for our chance to blow away the Cylon predator? It's no different for your children. Too much listening to me wax rhapsodically about The Academy, precision flying and the thrill to fight another day stories and duty." "I just hope that her eagerness is tempered by reality," Adama stated quietly. "Athena? I've rarely seen a more methodical person. She has a level head Adama." "She usually does, but I can't help but feel she is rushing into this with some sort of recklessness." "An edge of recklessness is something every great Warrior needs or they wouldn't be out there. But yes, you are right it needs to be tempered or it becomes merely a death wish. I don't think that her desire is wholly caused by the events of the last secton. You have instilled in both Apollo and Athena a great deal of responsibility to duty and no one who was on that bridge that horrible day didn't feel the sting of powerlessness, Athena more than most. She trained to be a warrior not a technician. It was a quirk of fate that she hadn't yet completed her leadership-bridge rotation. It was a quirk of fate that she was in the command track and wasn't automatically assigned to a squadron. Seeing her brother..." Tigh broke off. "Yes," Adama said heavily, "I can't deny her that, it has been a long time coming. I guess she sacrificed long enough for this old man and his worries. She has such a comfort to me there on the bridge. I knew she was safe and I knew that in a tight spot I could count on her without giving it a micron of thought. Not just because she was my daughter, of course," Adama was always quick to counter any hint of nepotism. "No need to defend her to me, old friend. If she wasn't better than good she wouldn't have been my aide!" Tigh smiled. "My paranoia is showing. It has been good to have the rest of the Council off my back. I do feel guilty for benefiting from Rhys' battles with those wolves." Tigh raised his eyebrows but didn't comment on Adama's about- face. "Her father was a great councilor, that severely limits the sorts of attack they can level against her - she is very popular with the people, not to mention a very smart young woman who has managed to hold her own against worse." "True, true. Have you considered to what squadron you are going to assign her?" "Well, she'll have to do a part-time assignment until she re- certifies in the cockpit. Then maybe the Blue Squadron? I think that it's the most logical assignment. She requested it in fact." "Whether both my children would like it is an entirely other story," Adama responded dryly. "I think there is a solution to that," Tigh responded and proceeded to explain his plan. END OF PART 1 - More to Come, I promise Notes: The next story written after this one is Part 3. Part 2 will be out sometime in 1999. Thanks to all my "fans" for their encouragement and commentary. Remember, flattery is the greatest form of flattery =)!! Hugs!